I guess sometimes it can be quite difficult to find the 'right' therapist. And to be honest, I really don't know what to suggest.
But I do know that at least by reaching out on here, it's a start to being able to talk things through ........ or should I say, tap it out on your keyboard at least.
Maybe it would help to ask for a referral to from your GP? If you haven't done that already, then it could well be a great place to start. Maybe it also depends on whether or not you are seeking a 'general' counselor, or perhaps seeking someone who may specialize in a certain area, such as a trauma specialist or something more streamlined?
For example, some years ago, when I was still married to my first husband, I wanted us to get counseling with someone who knew something about Autism and Asperger's syndrome in adults, because I suspected my husband was on the spectrum, but being in a rural area, there was no-one available. My (now ex) husband didn't want to know about it, and I just got more and more frustrated with the lack of understanding. I ended up finding an online support group - on Facebook of all things - and found it to be wonderful. The people on there really understood and got where I was coming from. It helped immensely and I feel so grateful that it was there for me at the time. Even though we are now divorced, at least I found something that worked for me at the time.
Anyway, the important thing is that you keep looking. And in the meantime, at least Beyond Blue is available to you 24/7, and you don't need a referral for here.
Hope that helps at least a little. And remember, it's okay to think 'outside the square' and try something a little different, such as online support, if that's what works for you.
Take care. xo