So I'm new here a year ago I left my husband who physically and sexually abused me on numerous occasions, we had a child together she has Cystic Fibrosis and diabetes from it, my daughter from a previous relationship has Asperger's, I'm trying to get over the things that were done to me and my girls illnesses keep me distracted from my feelings, but lately I feel like it's all too much and the thoughts of the past keep coming back , in dreams and even situations I'm in that make me remember

Hey Manda76,

Welcome to the forums, we are so thankful that you decided to reach out and share your journey here. We are so sorry to hear about what you have been through with your former partner. We think you are such a strong person to have been through so much and have such a positive and proactive perspective on moving forward in your life. Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space and our community is here to support you through this difficult time.

We can hear that this is a really tough time for you and you're wanting to heal emotionally. We would strongly urge that you contact 1800RESPECT. They offer confidential information, counselling and support 24/7 for people impacted by sexual assault, domestic or family violence and abuse. The lovely supportive counsellors have a lot of experience offering advice to support to women who have been through trauma like this. You can contact them on 1800 737 732 or https://www.1800respect.org.au/

If you feel up to it, we'd also encourage you to reach out to our Beyond Blue Support Service, which is available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

We hope that you can find some comfort in the forums and please feel free to keep us updated here on your thread throughout your journey. 

Hi Manda76

Welcome and I feel your pain with illness in the family. You have huge inner strength to post and be a part of the Beyond Blue family. I can feel you are trying so hard to heal from the awful pain you have been through

Sophie_M posted helpful advice especially about our caring friends at 1800RESPECT.....1800 737 732

Can I ask if you have a doctor that you see on a regular basis? I used to have chronic anxiety/agoraphobia for a long time and see my GP every 6 weeks for a 'tune up' where my anxiety levels are concerned

my kindest thoughts to you and your daughters .There is no judgement on the forums....just the best support we can provide through our own lived experience. There are many super kind people that can be here for you!

any questions or comments are always welcome Manda76

Paul