Im sorry you are feeling this way, I understand.
Sometimes we don’t know what’s going on with us and how to say it……… I remember going through this I actually just sat in my doctors office crying but my doctor understood that I needed help.
I also saw a clinical psychologist, I was crying , I was distressed, my head was in a spin and I just blurted out some of the horrible intrusive thoughts I was having.
Doctors and phycologists understand, they can read in between the lines.
Breaking down in front of health professionals is ok they see it day in and day out.. yes you will give them the spiel again but this time may be the time that you are talking to the correct doctor who can help you……. Never give up on finding that doctor they do exist.
I found my correct mental health team and I’m now recovered…. Life on the other side is amazing,
Please see your gp do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist ask for a clinical psychologist…….. what do you have to loose? I think you have a lot to gain…..