I see you are going through some really tough times. I haven't experienced exactly what you have, but some of the things you are experiencing right now are so familiar to me.
I've heard those same words, about how the sky is blue, so what do you have to be sad about & how there are so many people with worst problems. Sometimes, I am sure this is how people are telling me they don't want to hear it. Other times, I think they just don't know what to say.
I have learned to choose the people who are the more willing to sit and have serious conversations, grown-up sorts of people. They are more likely to have had difficult life experiences themselves, as well. When I chose the wrong people, it hurts to feel my difficulties swept aside.
I have noticed here, they don't do that.
I am glad you are seeing your GP & Psychiatrist regularly, & it seems you have a good relationship with them.
I wonder why you think the closer family members & your good friend would tell you something like, 'get over it? After all, they are asking, so perhaps they are, because they see your distress & want to help. They want you to know they care? What do you think?
I also live alone & have a public face, telling 'white lies', to not unburden myself to strangers. I have my PDr for that.
Sometimes, I actually find myself feeling good for a while when I am with someone who I can laugh ), joke & have fun with. I'm glad I am not my miserable self all the time.
Sometimes I feel I have been wearing a disguise, & when I take it off, there is Misery-guts - back again.
It is understandable that, with the police turning up like they did, you would have the flashbacks & memories, & all the feelings resurging through you. When something triggers, it really can be as if re-living the whole thing.
I sense the struggle in you, long & hard. It is exhausting.
I feel for you so much.
I can recall how I felt, when I didn't like life anymore; it was not fun, too much damage done to me, and I understood, I really just wanted all the crap to stop. Time & time again, I feel kicked back down but I suppose I am stubborn, because I get back up. I refuse to let the things that happened to me defeat me. Is that something you would like?
As for 'normal', no one knows what that is. My PDr can't even tell me that. I want to accept being myself instead.
My warmest regards,