Happy New Year to you, too!
It was lovely to hear from you again, although I'm so sorry that you're struggling to process your grief and having such a tough time. I'm curious, why is the psychologist unhelpful? (you don't have to answer if you don't want to, no pressure) Do you want to try sharing more about how you feel here? I'm happy to listen and try to help.
Grieving is a universal, yet highly personal experience. When I lost my dog I missed her like crazy for about a year. I kept expecting to see her every time I walked in the door or walked into a room. It just takes time to get used to the new situation, Flower Earth Angel. I promise you, it can get better.
Your burial plans sound lovely. I really like the idea of planting flowers--such a lovely way to honour your cat. Are you dreading the burial or hoping to do it soon?
We buried our dog under a tree on our property. My husband said a few words, my daughter made the headstone and we shared some of our favourite moments. It was difficult but I felt better after "the service". I felt like we had honoured our dog and family member in the right way and said proper goodbyes. For me, it was easier after the burial.
You hang in there and post any time.
Kind thoughts to you