I am really upset. I received a very rude text from the owner of the organisation where I fostered Hazel from. She stated that she 'believed I had an issue with her and would prefer I call to discuss rather than talk to other people about her'?!
I am assuming this came about from a discussion I had with the pet retreat around the lack of communication, help and support I received for Hazel. I never once said anything derogatory. I only spoke the truth. I guess the people at the retreat are gossip mongers and had to blow it out of proportion. Again; so disillusioned with people! Especially people who claim to love dogs and that is all they are about. I think not. I think it is all about control.
Anyway that stung but I am over it. I know I said nothing horrible and if they are going to act in such an asinine fashion that is their problem.
Now that Hazel is safe and happy elsewhere the loss of my beloved has hit me like a freight train. I guess the last four weeks with H were so nuts that I did not have time to think about her. Now H is gone...omg it is bad.
I came home tonight from a very busy shift and the minute I got in the car I thought "I can't wait to see my darling beloved when I get home"...then of course realised she is not here anymore? I feel I am losing my marbles?
So now again I am crying and just wishing things had been different. I did not foster Hazel as a replacement by any means! That was never my intention. I guess I did do H a great turn as she is now vaccinated, chipped and desexed and she had a glorious time here. If the group had been honest from day one about how much work was needed with her training etc I would never have taken her on. But I am glad I did as I know I gave her a very lovely special time and she is now in good hands.
I guess I just want my beloved back. Nothing else. Just her. I hope and pray that another soul comes along as she did; when it is least expected and it turns out to be the love of one's life.
Thanks for reading.