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Topic: Newly diagnosed PTSD

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  1. Mandy29
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    1 posts
    30 August 2020
    Hi this is my first post and hoping some support may help.

    I'll first point out my PTSD is no where near as bad as others so
    I want to make sure people know I don't think mine is super extreme.
    I had a major surgery at the start of the year that was extremely risky, The biggest risk being paraplegia.
    I was obviously petrified and did not cope well with the anticipation.

    Fast forward to post surgery - hospital healing was fine because I had support.
    However, time spent at home was frightening and downright petrifying.

    I never sought help for the slow increase in anxiety.
    I started to feel uncomfortable at home and this fear got completely triggered by being isolated at home whilst waiting for covid results.
    Fast forward 2 weeks and I've been completely incapacitated
    Major panic attacks and constant anxiety.
    Turning into very dark thoughts.
    Complete inability to live and cope.
    Medication has been started and trying so hard to overcome little hurdles.

    I would love to hear some suggestions long term and whether or not this is truly something I will get over
    (Unfortunately this medical condition is ongoing and will require further treatment)
  2. Sophie_M
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    30 August 2020 in reply to Mandy29
    Welcome Mandy29,

    We are so glad you decided to join us here today. We're so sorry to hear that you've been struggling. It's great to hear that you're focussing on little hurdles and that you've sought professional help - we think you are so strong! 

    Hopefully a few of our members will pop by over the next few days to welcome you and share their own stories. You might also like to take a look at, or join in on, some of the recent existing threads in our Anxiety section to get some ideas of how other people have been moving through their journeys.

    It may also be worth checking out some of our Beyond Blue resources: Please feel free to keep us updated on your journey here whenever you're feeling up to it.
  3. Jess_Mc
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    7 posts
    4 September 2020 in reply to Mandy29

    Hi Mandy,

    I have PTSD and it can feel awful, no matter how much better or worse mine is compared with other peoples' experiences with it. It can feel demoralising too. Right when I need to feel my strongest is often when I have felt the worst of it. It's frightening to feel like I can't rely on my body or my mind to support itself when I'm at my most vulnerable so I can only imagine how worrying it is to be faced with an ongoing medical condition and the uncertainty that your future must hold now.

    I sought therapy a couple of years ago (still ongoing) and the plan had been to finally, once and for all, develop the strength to tackle whatever life throws at me. I discovered that my body's response - the panic, the fear, the inability to move - was me protecting myself. It was the only way that I knew how to and even though it was horrendous and I would think the strangest, most dangerous things, what I was doing still felt more safe than everything else in my life. It was easy for me to ridicule that response, too. I could punish myself after a panic attack (admonishing myself, depriving myself of things that I enjoyed, etc) and being able to punish myself reminded me that I had control. But I didn't find it enjoyable. I hated it, actually. It usually made me feel just a little bit worse the next time that it happened.

    I had a lot of positive responses when I stopped punishing myself for my panic and started thanking my body for trying to put me first. For trying to find ways to keep me safe. I've been experimenting with lots of ways of giving myself that safety and relief that the panic is trying to make for me. Sometimes that's hugging myself; reminding myself through touch that I'm here and I'm OK. I'm very new at it and sometimes the things I experiment with feel silly and childish but always better for having tried them that not.

    I have a lot more good days now than bad ones. I've tried very hard to listen carefully to what my body and my mind want to do without judging those actions. Finding the strength to share the thoughts I'm having and the experiments I'm doing has been the most beneficial. It's helped me remember that everyone feels panicked sometimes and no one enjoys it so most people are naturally inclined to help me manage how I'm feeling, even if they don't know what PTSD feels like.

    I hope you're on the road to recovery and I hope you find some ease and some safety along this road. I hope you can feel supported and loved. All the best.

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