I can really relate to your horror year. I too have left a marriage that was emotionally, verbally,
and financial abusive.
This is my 3rd year out and went through hell trying to save the house and have somewhere to live. Its cost me over 10,000 in lawyer fees to reach where I am and very very lobbying by the loans person at the bank to finance me.
I lost my father during this time as well. Not sure If I have fully grieved his death due to trying to ungrapple myself from this man.
I too have lost all friends, except for 1 and work collegues.
I have decided not to engage in Facebook at the moment . I have removed the app and Im wondering if you could too?
It messes with my head , seeing happy families ,holidays etc. Its not that I am not happy for them, I just need to move on with my life. I feel looking at the past will keep me there.
I am indeed lonely , especially Christmas and New Years. I did not want this life . I loved also being a wife and mother. He screwed it . Not me and not you !
My children are growing up and do not need me as much so its easy to reflect of the past at times.
I see a ray of sunshine in your post. You say you have met a lovely kind person. How wonderful!!
I too have met the love of my life.... He works away so I miss him dearly.
He is the start of my life back to normality, as we should have been treated in the first place.
You can love yourself. Its not your fault. You are so brave . I look back to where I was Jan 2018.
Not any money, car repossesed, life as I knew it crumbling. But I know deep in my heart I am
in a better place. Mentally sometimes no, like today. But just getting this out and talking has helped.
I hope you will slowly step by step love yourself , because you are amazing !!!