Hi Summerose, thanks therr are 3 clusters of personality disorders, cluster a, b and c.
I have a personality disorder from repeated traumas. I experienced repeated abuse and neglect growing up and as a result my brain is always trying to male things safe. For me, at times, I control my situation to feel safe.
I don't identify wholly with myself through the personality disorder, I think some of the traits I've beat through self awareness and therapy. I hold it lightly.
But a comppex personality disorder, tbh, I know I have. It's also very stigmatised.
I would describe it as a type of chronic anxiety about feeling threatened or that my trauma is recurring. I'm also super hard on myself or others at times, because I am trying to keep safe.
Avdp is not my diagnosis exactly but is also a cluster c disorder, they are similar. Attachment styles also come in to it, there is healthy attachment, anxious and avoidant.
I use the knowledge but I don't hold it so firmly, I think personality disorders are completely treatable and the literature or pop dialogue around it sometimes makes it sound like it's a stuck, static way of being.
Some of my ocpd traits have literally dissolved in front of my eyes with correct treatment and supportive therapy.
I'm proud of having a perosnality disorder, it doesn't mean we're mean or controlling, it's an extended form of coping after trauma.
Thank u for Ur kindness, I was very scared to mention my disorder here for fear of stigma. Ur very caring summer Rose and all.