It's really helped me settle myself and put it into perspective reading these. I'm in my first relationship with my first boyfriend. Final exams are in 3 weeks, so that's stress inducing. We've been together for about 3 1/2 months now, and he's a wonderful person. He's made a huge effort to get to know my family, emphasises communication and respect from day 1 and reminds me every day that he loves me.
Sometime in the first month, I'd started to get these sudden waves of anxiety. He's the first person I've ever dated, had sex with, kissed or held hands with romantically. Our relationship has progressed and started very fast compared to "normal" standards (i.e peers), and I question over and over even though now I'm absolutely certain his feelings towards me are genuine. I'm afraid of the doubt in my mind, telling me I might not love him, otherwise I wouldn't feel like this. That he's not the right match for me, we'll have to break up, my feelings before weren't even there, etc. But, it's likely due to;
1) Exam stress. It'll all be over in 40 days, and that's terrifying. And I feel unprepared and these feelings make it hard to focus, adding guilt. The relationship anxiety always spiked before a big deadline or during exams.
2) I probably have a fear of relationships, or rather feelings. Previously being informed that someone liked me, I'd feel an overwhelming wave of anxiety, a loss of appetite, nausea, shaking, etc. This drove me to believe that I was possibly even incapable of romantic or sexual feelings.
So when this boy suddenly waltzed into my life and I actually liked his attention, it was weird. Heck, I still want his attention. I often feel better when he's around, but that doesn't stop moments of doubt from creeping in. Enough to make my cry in front of him and demand hugs and generally be a nuisance because hugging him makes me feel better.
I'm scared I'm not doing things right, that we "rushed into it", that I can't return his feelings, because I care and really don't want to hurt him. But I'm not sure I feel fully connected to him yet. Granted, it's a very new relationship. Is this just anxiety speaking? Or, that all of this is me trying to cover up the truth I don't want to hear? I refuse to accept that I might not love him. I will fight to stay with him. Isn't that proof enough that I do love him?
Simply put, overthinking is an issue, and I've probably got some major fears. But I hope it'll be over after exams.