Hello DreamyCream, and a warm welcome to the forums.
You can't forget the year that everyone has had to try and cope with, it's one that nobody had ever expected, being locked up in isolation because of this epidemic, so perhaps this may have made your situation difficult, but being your first love makes it even harder to try and cope with, especially when you both love each other.
Much can be said between two people when talking online if you haven't met each other and this can be shown as soon as you see one another, that love is present, however, as you begin to know more about the person being together, secrets may slowly be revealed, this doesn't mean you don't love him, all it means is that his way of thinking doesn't agree with yours.
Your first love is so important because it leaves such an incredible memory for you, but it's the beginning of being able to develop how to learn other people, the good points as well as the bad and then how to cope with them.
Your love will flow onto another person who, likewise, loves you, just as you love them, where you begin to grow together, knowing what each other adores in each other's world, it may seem to be lost but will develop you into another person and slowly grow forward.
Please get back to us when you're available.