Hang on there eaura
Firstly thanx for getting back with your latest reply.
NOW, the thing is, it was only ONE week ago, just 7 sleeps since you've spoken to your ex - obviously it didn't sound like an overly pleasant exchange, but it was the two of you talking - possibly for not very long. Which then means it's now concreted over (kind of an analogy there).
At least now you know where you stand there - and that there's no possible hanging on or hanging around for something that will not happen.
Relationships come and go - people come and go - matching up with someone, can seemingly be hard - but I tell you, you'll be just damn surprised at how many people manage it.
It's interesting that your psyche isn't being of much use to you and providing you with no real hints/insights to how things are and for your future. Very disappointing.
But man, don't give up - EVER. Haven't got family or friends; does that mean you've moved away from them all??
One week ago - things are really still raw for you and it will take time - but that's something that never stops - time. It keeps tick, tick, ticking along.
So while I'm not going to say, ok, get out there and get into the hobbies/sports you love - for now is a grieving time for you - to get yourself over this relationship - and this process will take as long as you need. But with each day that passes, each week, I know you will begin to feel better and who knows, what might happen from that.
For now though, just take it easy - lurk around here for a while or, um, was going to say put in strong days are your work or study, but I'm not sure which one.
But hey for as often as you like - post here, and post about your feelings, what thoughts are running through you head, etc - we'll be here for you.