Thanks Dadmeister. Yes, I have one child, almost in high school. I'm aware of this critical time in their life, and not keen on making it any harder on them than it needs to be. I admire your loyalty and faithfulness to maintain that solid family life. I'm torn- I desperately want to do the same, but wonder if it's hard on my kid because of the lack of peace in the house? I hoping I'm not overstepping, but I'm genuinely curious how the happy families thing works for you? We do it too. The two of us go out for coffee, watch movies, talk, and we do some family stuff together too. At those times, everything feels almost normal. Then, he has this whole other life where he openly prioritises this other person. Where he treats her with a depth of affection that has long since been lost between us. It's weird. I'm conscious of the feeling of being dropped for the better model. Of no longer having the same standing in his life that she now does. I'm not really sure who I am to him anymore, and truth be told I think he is still trying to figure that out too. When we do life together and it feels normal, I feel a small spark that maybe things will be better again and we won't divorce. But I just think that's wishful thinking. He vacillates between saying he wants a divorce, and maybe not. The maybe not is only because it would be inconvenient for him and his life rather than any feelings of choosing me. And sometimes he feels pity for me, which I don't want/need either. Do you ever wonder if she will ever choose you again? If she will see her error and want to make it work again? I'm still living in that no-man's land. Not wanting to hope for anything because I'm just trying to keep it real, and all the while waiting for him to look at me the way he used to and get on board with making us better. Just for interest, I've just today booked a visit with a counsellor because I'm aware I need to be talking to someone about all of this. Haha, I told him about it, and he asked if I'd be telling the counsellor all about him. Of course, I said. Oh, and he was worried that he had to come along also and that I'm doing counselling to make him change his mind. I was impressed with myself that I could honestly say I am doing the counselling for myself alone, to make me a better/healthy person. What is your support network like?