Hi Jocky the Swagman,
I too am a member of the CFS. When we moved to the country a couple of years ago I decided it was one way to meet people and also to be able to help out in some way.
Have you asked any of the people from the CFS if they would like to join you in a meal at the pub now and then?
I sometimes invite the members to our place for a meal and we hope to organise some games evenings as well.
Regrading your anger concerns, I too have that problem. I go out and tackle the garden. One day I went and butchered all of the fruit trees. They seem to have recovered okay, so will see if they set any fruit this year!
Does it help you at all to write things down. You can then screw the paper up and chuck it away.
Some people use punching bags to help get out their frustrations.
We had an old car at the CFS station. I took a sledge hammer to that one night. That helped. My arms were so sore the next day though. Ha. Ha.
Hope you manage to find some solutions. A counsellor might be a good idea or use the web chat or phone lines.
Cheers for now from Mrs. Dools