Thank you for posting this. Yes, it's funny (but not funny in the moment) how our minds play these tricks on us: I am not good enough, nobody will love me, and I've ruined it and there will never be another opportunity to get another chance.
I'm in a situation where my mind is running at 100% with all of these things. The fact is that I am not good enough is the reason my relationship is at an end. I couldn't care about other opportunities or other people loving me. At this stage in my grief, I just feel completely lost and very hurt. I haven't gotten to the point of wanting love again.
I acknowledge that I have things to fix, and my partner is giving me on thing that I need to work on (trust) that results from a traumatic upbringing where I learnt not to trust. He (I'm a gay man), told me that he still loves me, but "love isn't enough". I tried to understand what this could possibly mean, but then he said "trust". It needed trust too. Now he will not give the relationship any further opportunity, he is already looking for a job in another town, and has made it pretty clear that he doesn't want me at all.
I saw my GP, got a referral to a psychologist, but the appointment wait time is so long. In the meantime I've been upset at work, and i have nobody to really talk to about it. Any advice?