dear Ritzley, I want to thank you so much for posting your comment.
This whole situation must have been absolutely devastating for you, and being 18 months ago doesn't mean that you were out of the woods, and no matter how strong a person you are, eventually it was going to hit you, and it has, depression has now taken over your life, and I'm so sorry for this, you're been through too much .
I can't answer when it will stop because everyone is different, the help, support and any medication they are given.
I would like to know if any of your daughters are in contact with him and what their thoughts are regarding this, besides this it's time for you to seek help and that you need to see your doctor.
All of us know exactly what you are going through, depression is the curse of the world, and no one can overcome it by themselves, that's why you need to seek professional help starting off with your doctor, who will get the ball rolling for you.
He/she will set up a medicare plan which gives you 10 free visits to see a psych and if I may go back to your daughters I wonder if they too are suffering from depression.
I really hope that you can get back to us. L Geoff. x