1967 said:I'm new and ...snip... I don't know what I want out of this Forum or if it may help I just don't know.
G'day 1967, I'm kinda newish here too, joined in Feb but only been hanging out more these last few months.
I too have felt like I didn't even know what I wanted. Which turned out to be interesting because, I realised I wanted to know what I wanted. Just that intention of wanting to know was brilliant!
I hung onto it. I discovered, nope, didn't want friends, didn't want sport, didn't want phone calls, didn't want food, didn't want alcohol, all the didn't wants started piling up higher and higher -so I acknowledged that and let them all go.
And abided there for a while.
I discovered that even though I wanted nothing, that I also didn't want cold feet.
So I put on my best thick socks, in my best threadbare ugg boots, wrapped myself in my best sleeping bag, next to the best heater I had and I took comfort that I had discovered something I wanted.
I wanted warm feet.
Turns out I occasionally still get cold feet from my T2 diabetes, but damn me I'm going to aim to keep them warm!
So I suggest you start with listing your survival needs. You want to survive right!