I’ve never posted on here before but it seemed like a good idea to get some help.
I’m a transgender guy, I came out at the end of last year and my parents and friends are good at using the right name/pronouns. It’s great and makes me feel comfortable, but I cant help the feeling of "What if I regret this? What if I’m wrong?". In the past I’ve been told it’s a phase, and I read about other trans people and they all seem so sure, like they never feel doubt. Then I read about the percentage rate of detransitioners and it scares me. Is this a normal feeling for a trans guy? Most of the time I don’t feel doubt, I like being me, I’ve got new found confidence and enjoyment for life.
I love being a guy and finally being seen as one, I remember throughout my childhood and early teen years repeatedly saying that I thought I was a boy and that I wanted to be a boy. I feel gender dysphoria, though I’ve never been diagnosed so I couldn’t be sure about what I’m feeling, I just know that I feel uncomfortable in my body and how I’m perceived in public. When I look at female bodies I think "I don’t want to look like that." And when I see male bodies I think "I wish I looked like that." And "I’m gonna look like that one day." I want the flat chest and the facial hair and the everything.
Is this normal? Like, what if I’m wrong and I’m just a weird confused person? What if it really is just a phase and I end up going on hormones and I’m wrong? I’m struggling with this doubt, but I ask myself "do you really want to go back?" and I think no way. Despite this I can’t help the opposing thoughts.
I hope this makes sense, it’s a bit of a ramble but I'd really love some help on this,