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Topic: Bi, shamed, and disowned from my family

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  1. Brokenbutworking
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    5 April 2018
    This is the first time I’ve been with a girl so I myself am trying to understand my feelings. My mum has spat in my face (literally), called me a slut, and told me to go to hell when I told her I wouldn’t leave my girlfriend just because she wanted me to. From there, things got physical. I already suffer from major anxiety and depression and have had suicidal thoughts in the past. I don’t know how to overcome this. Every time I settle, the image of her spitting in my face comes back again and again. I feel terrible. I don’t know how to get back up from this...
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  2. Jacko777
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    5 April 2018 in reply to Brokenbutworking

    Hi Brokenbutworking,

    I'm real glad you are talking about this, there will be ways to get back up from this, stay on track. You can always ring the Beyond Blue phone service for some support and advice.

    I feel sorry for your mum, I guess it is perhaps a fear of the unknown that has caused her to react in this horrible way to you, it's not good enough that she has treated you this way. This episode is a reflection of her, not you. Do you live with your mum?

    It is disappointing for you I am sure, hopefully over time mum will see that she has wildly overreacted. Meanwhile please look after your self, you come first, forget mum for now, be with people who can care and love you as you deserve.

    Jacko

  3. Just Sara
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    5 April 2018 in reply to Brokenbutworking

    Hi BBW and welcome;

    There's nothing harsher than being dealt a raw deal by those we love and rely on for guidance and acceptance. You must be feeling very isolated and confused.

    I'm sure you thought telling your mum was the honest thing to do hoping she'd understand. It backfired unfortunately and here you are. I feel incredibly sorry for you and apologise that your post wasn't replied to until now. (Thankyou so much Jacko!)

    At 21 I was raped by the love of my life and my mother said to me; "So what did you do to make him do that to you?" 35 yrs later and the penny dropped! I'd lived my life feeling like the cause instead of a victim.

    Please don't let this incident (spitting in your face) affect who you are or what you think of yourself ok; it's her cross to bare not yours. Attraction is the foundation for love, not humiliation. Allowing others into that private space, especially those who mean harm, can't be productive or useful. It's your heart and body.

    What your mum did was violent, not motherly. Please take it for what it is; abuse. Most of all though, it's NO REFLECTION of who you are. It's an off the cuff response to her fear, and maybe a deep feeling of disappointment that can't be expressed at this time. That's still not your problem, it's up to her to express herself properly.

    I'm not sure what your relationship's like with your mum, but if this is any indication, you might want to take a step back and spend some comforting time with your girlfriend. Look after yourself because your mum obviously doesn't have your best interest at heart.

    When you see this vision in your mind, it's because you're confused and self blaming. Maybe you could try writing your feelings down and read over them. It's not the end of the world, but it's definitely a troubling situation. I really hope you see these posts hun. I'm sorry again for your post being lost.

    Caring thoughts;

    Sez

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