Hi Jo and Lillylane, hope you both are doing okay.
My journey is going in a lot of different directions at the moment as I try to find my place in our community.
I am meeting with another group tomorrow afternoon who I have been told have a large group of transgender women in it so hopefully might get to meet some more people to talk with.
Had a bad day yesterday as my GD hit me hard and I needed to step away from my work for awhile to gather myself and stop crying. It was so disappointing because I hadn't broken down for weeks, which I suppose was a positive.
I reached out to my on line groups and once again was blown away by the amount of support, love & concern I received from people who I have never met or spoken to. Our community is something special as I have never come across so many wonderful people.
Every time something like this happens I fall more in love with our community.
The only other thing I was a bit disappointed about was the women who I was supposed to meet up with the other week who cancelled because of illness popped up in my Facebook feed with a updated image about a make over she had just had.
I thought that she looked very nice and just commented complementing how good she looked.
A few minutes later she replied and asked how I was doing which I replied great and also said again how nice she looked and it was good that she was feeling much better. I asked if she would still like to meet sometime to have a chat.
Well that was the end of the conversation and haven't heard from her since, I think that this didn't help my GD and most probably played on my mind Friday leading in my attack.
Jo I am also not a confidant person and struggle with new people until I get to know them, once I get to know people that I connect with they usually friends for life. Which is how I feel about you and Lillylane.
I am trying to find new friends as I have concerns about the high cost that my transition will cost me.
I had my eyebrows shaped for the first time today, exciting.
I had a piece of advice yesterday from someone who I respect and trust and she told me I will soon learn who my true friends are and I should treasure them as they will be my best allies. These friends may not be people I know now as I may find them during my journey. She also said that I had to be sure that this is what I truly want need to make my life whole. There will be huge sacrifices and gains as that I cannot envisage.
Looking forward to our next chat.