Hello Dear Lisaftmluca,
A very warm and caring welcome to our forums..
Im sorry your struggling so much with you feeling unsettled and suicidal...You have been through a lot and still are..
Im wondering and would like to gently ask you if you have any mental health professionals caring for you...and if it’s something that you would consider....suicidal thoughts really need to be talked out with a professional to help you find out and understand what’s happening to you...
Sleep is vital to restore our body and mind..finding it hard to sleep with an overactive mind is very difficult...Do you listen to soft music, meditation or even sleep stories as your trying to sleep...Listening very mindfully to something calming might settle your mind into a sense of calm..which hopefully you can drift of to sleep while listening to them...
It takes a lot of courage to write out your first post..Well done Lucas
Talk here anytime you feel up to it...We are here for you..with the hope that we can support you through this hard time your going through..
My kindest and most caring thoughts..