I believe one of the most monumental things in life involves 'waking up' to who you naturally are. Can involve so many challenges. I've found waking up to be such a gradual process, discovering it's often the ongoing challenges which lead you to graduate to coming to know yourself much better.
For me, it was about 16 years ago that I suddenly came out of many years in depression. It felt like I'd just woken up to discover a deep longing to come to know myself, others and life naturally. Yes, I'm one of those 'woo woo' gals who seeks a better understanding of not just mental and physical aspects but also soulful aspects. It was very exciting until the challenges became too great and I didn't have a mentor to help me get through. I couldn't manage the challenges that came with being labelled as 'weird', 'ridiculous' (ridiculed as a joke), 'ignorant' and more. I suppressed my longing, in order to fit in, and gradually began to become depressed again. A few years ago, I met a spiritual coach, who changed my life and got me back on track.
The reason for me mentioning all this relates to how life can sometimes naturally go when we begin to wake up to who we truly are. You can begin to question who you are and who you are not. A lot of questioning. You graduate to coming to know yourself better this way. You can question others in order to gain a clearer perspective, perhaps getting a feel for whether you'll be accepted or rejected (aka 'The process of finding the tribe you best vibe with'). Questioning others in order to gain guidance can be another factor. Bit of a warning: While you may possess and open mind, you soon find the people who don't. With an open mind, be careful of what you let in. Anything that feels wrong must be questioned (degradation, ridicule, depressing stuff etc). Anything that feels right, let in and explore. Sounds like the nail polish feels right as it brings you joy, something you love to feel.
I've found there can be significant 'graduation' points which typically do involve a lot of tears. I've come to discover these happen when there's a part of myself I have to let go of, say goodbye to. One involved being challenged to let go of the fearful constant people pleaser in me, who I'd lived with the whole of my life. You can grieve as that sense of self dies off through ongoing sufferance (unable to please everyone). Then, the part of you that won't tolerate nonsense from anyone suddenly comes to life, in its place.