Re you saying you wish you weren’t gay because of being
made to feel different. You are gay. And being gay is exactly as normal as
being heterosexual. If other people treat you as not normal then they are not
normal J. I
don’t know how many of my female friends including my friend who runs PFLAG
here say, “God it would be good to be a Lesbian!” .. of course, we are having a
dig at the fellas we meet and their lack of sensitivity! And I’m sure gay
people do the same, “God I wish I was heterosexual!!! Re their relationships”. Do you get what I’m saying. You are gay. Cool.
I am heterosexual. Cool. What’s the difference?
To tell you a little bit more about myself – and much to
my immense shame. I am 52 and grew up in a time when being gay was not at all
accepted and I think not legal??? I grew up in the 60s. Born 1961. I had never
had anything to do with gay people until some adults took me into their home
when I was homeless at 16yo. They had a son who was gay and in the theatre. I
went to a party with them and met their son and other gay people. I must admit,
I felt a bit odd at the time but only because a couple of the guys were more
feminine and graceful than me (a clutz and not graceful ever). But I had a ball
with them because they were really nice people. Nothing to do with being gay or
not – so don’t think that was a factor. But I liked them as people.
Then through my own traumatic years I got involved with
fundamental religion. Gays are an abomination to God... rah rah rah. Without
really understanding that or many things and being so lacking in confidence, I
accepted the manipulation of males re the Bible. Then when I was 35yo I went to
an Agoraphobic workshop thingy. Yes, I was agoraphobic since 23yo. Anyway, in
this workshop was a gay guy I will never forget as long as I live. He grew up
in a religious family. So from day one he fought who he was. Condemned in every
way. He cried his eyes out and I cried my eyes out. I saw that I had blindly
accepted the truth of someone else (the religion – and I was a party to
condemning this man). I broke my heart over him, and apologised profusely, and I
understood, for the first time that ignorance not only comes from fear, but
from lack of self esteem. Allowing others to deem what is truth.
From there, obviously, I gave religion a wide berth and
still will have nothing to do with fundamental religion. Then I worked in a
call centre between 2000 and 2008. Quite a few Lesbians and gay guys. They were
mates. Not only with me but with straight guys and even other people from other
cultures around the world like some Muslims (despite what is classified as
being Muslim). Basically, we were all mates. And sexual gender didn’t come into
it. Who cares what sexual gender you or I am? You are you and I am me and who
gives a sh**? Looking forward to going to a PFLAG for the show in CQ soon with
my good friend who runs it. Normal is you. Not normal is anyone who thinks or
tries to make you think you are not normal.
PS: Having said that, I have to confess. While I was in
the call centre and since I have been adamant that people can call me ‘crazy’
any time, but don’t you dare call me ‘normal’.
want to be an individual not a clone. J J