I understand Geoff and thank you very much for your thoughts. It just, in my head at the minute either decision I make is going to cause severe upset. I’m trying to weigh up everything, do I choose my family and sacrifice my feelings or do I sacrifice my family and choose my feelings. I love them all very much, I feel selfish. Three lives turned upside down for my one. Three people devistated or just the one (me). I have a battle going on inside, sometimes I say to myself, it’s maybe best to come out whilst the kids are as little as they are, maybe easier for them growing up rather than leaving it till their older. I also have a step son, whose 10, and she has an older son at home whose 22. If I do this now, I’ll struggle, probably become depressed and it will affect my studies. Do i wait till my studies are over after 3 years, could i wait that long, I don’t know. I am also conscious of the fact I’m not getting any younger and want to experience things whilst I’m young-ish. At the minute when I look at my kids I just well up, thinking I may not see these family times again, see them being funny, having a laugh, is all dancing together. Is me coming out worth loosing all this? These are the questions I’m asking myself.