Reading between the lines, I can agree. Having a large, warm heart, and being open to experience your pain, as well as others, can so often look like a negative character trait in our society. We value strength, and imperviousness, and 'triumphing despite the odds.'
And all of those things are...great. Yet sometimes, it's just not true. And I realise, I really value TRUTH.
(I'm also realising that not everyone deserves my truth, lol not lol)
Sometimes the road to healing is V messy. And others watching us struggle may want us to get better quicker, by taking this medication, or by doing this course. But maybe it's not right for us...? Who can tell. Only us.
As Sleepy says, "I really like how I'm developing or reconnecting to myself and making my own choices from pure gut instinct. "
I really like that too Sleepy! And I can hear the strength in your words!
Anyway. I just want to say that I hear you, Dools, and I can hear the strength in you, and feel the depths of your suffering. And those two things can and do co-exist in the same breath.
Being human. It's almost defined by our suffering....
Dools, I am sorry that GPs where you live are so tough to get in to. It shouldn't be that way. However, I've got to say that I've heard more ppl complain about their GP's here on BB than brag about them. It seems like GPs have a lot more responsibilities to uphold now than ever before. To me, there's nothing quite like an ordinary, gifted counsellor, who cares just enough to listen, but isn't needing to keep you coming back for the rest of your life in order to satisfy their own ego. One who puts the healing back in our own hands.
Thankyou for inspiring others Dools. You are precious, and valuable, just the way you are.