Hi there pl515p1
Thanks heaps for your post - what courage and strength it has taken for you to pour so much emotion into your words.
I sincerely believe this forum will help you, as it has done to so many others over the years.
The short answer about whether healthcare for mental health is essential is a big YES!
Is Covid separation, telehealth and Covid distancing a fair way to treat it - NO is isn't!
Every day I read about the thousands of human beings severely affected by Covid and the seemingly inhumane consequences it is bringing. How very easy is it for a health officer beaurocrat to odere a sudden lock down with seemingly little empathy towards persons like you. Yes, I wonder to why you cannot go and see your counsellor for an important and healing 1 : 1 session then drive straight back home.
If I may offer one small suggestion that has proven very successful with people suddenly separated from their support framework due to lock down - that is to have a routine and keep busy with it.
Even Olympic athletes who have recently been on top of the world are now finding themselves depressed in quarantine etc - guess what? Those who have created a daily routine and stick to it are coping much better.
This probably sounds too easy - but I personally find that when my mind is occupied or thinking of the next daily thing to do (they are NOT regarded as tasks), I feel much better and the day flies by.
My daily list includes a 1 hour exercise programme and I monitor how I feel afterwards each day, relearning how to play my guitar all over again, getting into a great series of books written by Peter Fitzgerald, brushing both our dogs (very therapeutic), thinking about what's for dinner when its my turn etc etc.
One activity I have also enjoyed very much is messaging one different friend every day. Who cares if they respond, but they mainly do. Keep the messages up beat if you can, and be sure to ask about what they are up to. If you know their interests, ask about that too.
Anyway, please feel secure that as long as you are on this forum you need not feel cold and alone, even though in person hugs are not possible!
Stay strong, I believe that one day you will look back at this period as a learning experience as you gradually grow strongly out of it.
All the very best for now, happy for you to stay in touch.