Thanks for posting the update - I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better on the new antidepressants. That's awesome.
I can feel really weird too because of past trauma and sometimes I get scared that people will take advantage because I am very trusting and I don't know how to stick up for myself.
I always get the sense that people are looking at me and thinking that I am a weird person. Maybe sometimes I do act a little odd, but not always. I actually like being a little odd at times because I think life can be a bit boring because we all follow the same rules of "normal" social interaction and sometimes it is far too constraining, not genuine and is suffocating. When I see someone act outside of social convention I don't think 'what a weird person' I kind of think its great in a way. A different form of expression in life that feels more real to me. So for every person that calls me weird I know there are others that appreciate difference. It's not really weird is it? its just different and sometimes people need to be liberated before they see that difference on the surface is nothing - it's just play. Deep down we are all fundamentally the same - all human beings.
So you just be your wonderful self, I'm happy you are feeling better. I'm sorry to hear what's happened to you I am sure along with the challenges you have some great strengths as well. Good on you.