Hi Grandy! Such a beautiful thread, thankyou sweet lady.
You must be SO PROUD of your car now Grandy! Bugs be gone lol!
So true how hard it is when suffering from depression & anxiety.
I remember this feeling so vividly. Some "bits" still linger especially when I've had a rough time, like the past 24h.
It was fear that stopped me washing my car for the longest time.
Fear I'd be seen by perps, be put in danger, even in my own driveway.
Fear that I wouldn't have money after paying for a car wash. Money I would desperately need.
Always fear of some thing or another.
I'm good with doing it now. Some times, not too often. 😉
This afternoon I did something I was also fearful of.
Same ole same ole, "go to feelings" for recent reasons.
I just decided to go into Spotlight.
Realised I was anxious but pushed through with it anyway.
Asked one lovely shop assistant so many questions about different things.
She was SO patient (I was fearful she'd snap at me but she answered kindly every time).
Then I was fearful that the things I was choosing for the kids, they'd hate, ridicule me or the like.
The total opposite happened.
They were SO in love with what I bought them. Thrilled in fact.
Then I wondered why I put myself through the elongated fear scenarios.
I know why it's a "go to".
Just not why I still go TO.
New Vet for rescue poodle tomorrow. Feeling fearful about that now and can't sleep. He'll be fine. It's just recent bad experiences with previous Vets.
Many Blessings everyone.