Thanks for your contact as well. All of the things you do at the centre are very inspiring. There must be so many people who benefit from all that you do for them.
Regarding the second hand shops, some of them have some real treasures in them. Some Churches have sales as well where you can also pick up some wonderful bargains.
Depression can be a difficult thing to handle. When I am feeling too overwhelmed, I make a list of the things I feel I really need to do and decided to do one of those jobs. Then I cross that off and if I have the energy I will tackle something else.
If it all becomes too much I go out and water the garden and have some time to myself, read a book, phone a friend, colour in, do a Sudoku puzzle or something to distract my mind.
With your unit, just tackle one little section at a time. Don't think you need to do it all this week. It may take you a while to find the things that you want in it. Think of it as an ongoing project...much like my garden!
I'm not sure what to suggest with your brother. I have heard that people are able to block out sections of their lives, it would be a very good thing to learn how to do sometimes!
I'm wondering if you may be able to have a sense of forgiveness in all of this. I know you will never be able to forget, but maybe a little forgiveness will help. Forgive the evil in your brother at that time and maybe you may need a sense of forgiveness for yourself.
Even though none of what happened was your fault, our minds can twist things and make us feel guilty and shame when there is no reason for it.
I felt guilty for years over the deaths of our stillborn babies, thinking it was somehow my fault and I deserved it. Once I learnt to forgive myself then I was able to let go of some of the pain.
I hope that makes sense to you.
I too wish you a happy Easter. I will be attending a dawn service Easter Sunday and will have one of my nieces sleeping over Saturday night and another one is joining us for lunch on Sunday. So I am so looking forward to the time with them.
Cheers for now and best wishes for a brighter day!
From Mrs. Dools