Dear Indra,

Hi. It would be lovely to be able to catch up in person and meet your boys, but that is not how things work here at Beyond Blue and fair enough. So you will just have to tell me more about them here through our posts!

We know a family with 4 children aged 6 to about 16 and like spending time with them. Their two boys both have autism, not too badly though. I used to work in Vacation Care where we had a few children with various needs. One boy with autism could hardly talk at all, about all he could say was his name.

My husband and I still go tot he kids movies by our selves sometimes. It is more fun with children though!

My sister in law...yes I think she is very controlling, as is her Father and my husband unfortunately and my Mother in Law too. They are all certainly tarred with the same brush!

Do you have some friends you can catch up with Indra? People who make you feel happy when you are with them?

I'm going to call a couple of ladies I know and see if they want to join me Wednesday morning in a quaint country café in an old Church. I'm not working that morning so it will be an opportunity to do something different.

Thinking of you and hoping you have some nice things planned for the day.

Hugs of care and hope for your future, cheers from Lauren

Hi Lauren,

I do understand BB policy and the anonymity of it all, what I had said was more a figure of speech.  Apologies if I offended.

More turmoil here at the moment - more family related - they all tend to lean on me during a crisis - never the other way around.

Take care of yourself,

Indra 

Hi Indra,

Oh dear! You have not offended me at all! I certainly understand your figure of speech. It would be wonderful if we as people in general could catch up and support each other in person.

It would be excellent if friendships could be fostered outside of the site and be just as true and meaningful in "real life".

Sometimes we find that we really connect with someone and appreciate their contact and friendship.

I was just acknowledging the way this site runs. I have never been on a different forum so don't know what their general rules are.

Sometimes it is so very easy for the written word to be misconstrued as well!

Sorry to read you have found yourself involved in more family troubles. I do so hope you are able to help out, and also find the strength you need for yourself and your boys!

Cheers for now, from Lauren

Hi Lauren,

I hope you have been well and that you have been successful with what has been going on for you.

Sorry for the delay in response - it has been a little chaotic here. My mum ended up in hospital again and my little one and I just got back today. My mum is on the mend but finds it hard to sit still! I felt like the parent. I cooked tea for my parents and helped out around the house. My little one had a ball playing with his 6 year old cousin. My niece and miniman are very close and played, made a lot of noise and held hands for most of the visit! The only hassle was where the live in the country, the internet reception isn't very good!

Previous to that - I thought I had internet problems over the weekend - it turned out that my ex had hacked my account and had locked me out!!  I got it fixed and is now all secure - the IT guy at the service provider was very helpful and I gave him a laugh anyway. I also found out in the last few days that my ex had been cheating on me prior to leaving the relationship. That was a little hurtful - but he has gone and I am now moving on. This has been the first positive for me in quite awhile!

I can't wait for Friday - my eldest son will be home again - we have missed him dearly! It will be a bit of a rough night getting him re-settled but it will be worth it.

Did you end creating something with your shells last weekend? Hope it went well if you did - I am very craft challenged - so far me I would have to buy the craft or get my mum to make it lol

Wishing you well, and it is nice to actually smile for a change,

Cheers,

Indra

Hi Indra,

Lovely to hear from you again. Sounds like you have had a bit of a busy time there! Hope your Mum and Dad are okay now.

I'm sorry to read about your ex and the things he was up to. I don't want to worry you at all, but are there other things he could have interfered with before he left? I suppose if there were any more problems with anything, they would have surfaced by now.

My week has not been all that pleasant emotion wise. I am trying to secure an appointment with a mental health professional but it is not proving easy to do so.

After many phone calls I now have an appointment with a person in the city...an hour's drive away from us. There just is no one available in our region. This appointment is for the end of the month so hopefully I can keep balanced until then. Ha. Ha.

I'm trying to use the skills I have learnt over the years and try to make the most of each day.

When I can't manage something, then oh dear, I will try and achieve that thing tomorrow or next week.

My craft project with the shells is a little like that. I have now managed to paint them all and I hope to varnish them tomorrow.

Yesterday I took myself out to lunch. One of the local hotels has a salad and vegetable selection that is less than $10.00 so I had a very healthy lunch. Felt a little weird sitting there by myself, but it didn't matter. I didn't have a lot of time between clients anyway.

After work today I took a book down to the garden and sat there reading for a while as I kept a bit of an eye on the chooks while they roamed around. The darn things really don't like going back to their house when I am ready for them to do so! Ha. Ha.

You mentioned you are craft challenged, that is okay. We all have things we are good at and then those things that we just don't do quite as well. Singing is one of those things for me. Ha. Ha.

Even when I was running a playgroup, one of the kids asked me to stop singing as I was hurting her ears. Ha. Ha. I thought that was hilarious!

I hope the reunion on Friday goes well with your older son and that he soon settles again.

Hope you have some nice things planned for the weekend.

Cheers for now, from Lauren

Good morning and Happy Friday to all! :) I'm very glad that it's almost the weekend...I just have to get through a big day at work today... Looking forward to going on a walk with some new friends tomorrow morning at a nearby park. It has big hills etc and I'm quite unfit... will be a good challenge for me.  

Indra: I hope that your mum is doing okay again. I'm sure your mum really appreciated everything that you did for her - I think there's something really special in being able to care for your parents.  

Mrs Dools: (I love that name!) I hope that you can keep balanced until your appointment - we can all help you here.  Well done on taking yourself out for lunch :) You deserve it. I sometimes take myself out for lunch or coffee, and I enjoy sitting there by myself, either reading or people watching, or eating mindfully. I hope that you enjoyed it.  I have done other things by myself too such as going to the movies.  Instead of thinking of it as lonely (my partner was working away at the time) I thought of it as a date with myself... I enjoyed it... I just saved up my commentry from the previews before the movie, to a phone call later. :)

Hope everyone else has a lovely Friday! :)

Hi Lauren,

Hope you survived the wild and wooly weather of the weekend! It certainly was cold! I think the boys and I are beginning to get cabin fever being cooped up for several days. Dvds and toys only get you so far! Even the cat hasn't ventured outside too much and normally I can't get him in at night lol

I have had some good days - but yesterday I took a gigantic nosedive. It is very draining and I feel bad, as I was a little snappy at the boys. I took a minute outside - and tried to get calm again. They can sense when I am not too happy, they seem to want to cuddle me more.

My parents are on the mend - just need to relax a bit more - I think my Dad isn't enjoying retirement too much!

As for my ex, I had made sure that I had changed other things over (financial, passwords etc), I hadn't thought of the internet side before then - he used to do all of it - I think it was more of a retaliation. He chose to go! I have heard he is interstate now - his Aunt messaged me. Whether he is or isn't, I feel now that chapter is closing in my life.

Big hug for you Lauren - I am sorry your week has had some emotional upheaval. Getting appointments is very frustrating in the public health system. Not to mention if you are rural as well. I am glad that you are trying to stay positive though - sometimes tomorrow can't come quick enough!!

Lovely to hear that your shell project is coming along - do you have a design in mind of what you would like to create?

What a bargain with the counter meal and why not treat yourself!! I agree with you on sitting by yourself in a restaurant/pub for a meal does feel a little weird. You'll need to bring a book or magazine next time lol They way technology is today, I would have been doing something on my phone to pass the time lol

That sounds lovely that you have a spot in your yard where you can sit and read - my yard is a little small for that and if it was daytime - I would get interrupted every 2 minutes by my miniman! Yes, chooks certainly have a mind of their own - most animals get stubborn like that, including us humans haha

The boys and myself are traveling back to my parent's on Wednesday, just for a day visit this time, so my eldest can spend some time with the grandparents. Both boys like looking at my mother's pond - an old bathtub in the second backyard that has goldfish - but when I mean goldfish - they are huge! She has had them for years and all of the grandkids enjoy feeding them. My parents are right on the water, so they get a god view of the native waterbirds around. The pelicans are reasonably friendly - I think because they get fed from time to time.

Must go and start the day - just enjoying the quiet, before the two sleeping beauties arise!

Hope this week is a better one for you Lauren - hang in there, the end of the month isn't too far away!

Cheers,

Indra

Hi ThisAquarian,

Thank you for the well wishes. My mum is on the mend a little - she has a lot of ongoing issues - but is stable at the moment.

My parents did enjoy the dinner that I made - it was just a matter of keeping them out of the kitchen! I guess I am the one the seem to rely on - I do have siblings.

Hope your walk went well at the park - I can get back in to the gym/walking once school holidays have finished!

Thank you for saying hi!

Cheers,

Indra

Hi This Aquarian,

Thanks for your encouragement. I am usually a much more upbeat person than I am at present! I've recently needed to come of some antidepressant medication because the side effects for me were horrendous.

The worst being falling asleep quite suddenly while driving! I actually had a couple of mini lapses of consciousness where I woke up as the car was driving into the dirt on the other side of the road! Not a good idea at all. That and the intense muscle and joint pains were ridiculous.

I'm now waiting for an appointment with a psychiatrist for ideas on a new medication. One I tried before made me really agro. I managed to get a lot of house cleaning and gardening done while on that medication thanks to all the energy. Ha. Ha.

I made an emergency mental health appointment at the Drs today and the lady Dr I saw wanted to put me into hospital. Part of me knows that is the best place for more right now.

Problem is I am the one working in our marriage and if I don't work I don't get paid.

I feel like I am stuck between a rock and  hard place. The Dr today gave me some pills to help me chill out until I can see my own Dr. next week so I will see what happens between now and then.

I still looked for the positives to day. I had a nice time in the pool this morning. My client in the morning was very happy to see and gave me a hug when I left. The Dr was nice after she had given me a lecture about needing to go to the hospital.

We had some much needed rain and the sun shining through the clouds was gorgeous. I smiled to myself at the antics of some lambs I saw in a paddock on my way home. Then enjoyed watching The Voice with my husband and had a phone call from a girlfriend who really cares for me.

I too often go places by myself and make the most of it.

Hope you had a good weekend.

By the way, Doolhof is a Dutch word meaning maze or puzzle, that is what life seems like at times for me. Sometimes I just need to find the right direction to travel to find my way to the exit, where I can then burst out into the world again and experience something new!

Cheers form Mrs. Dools

Hi Indra,

Thanks for all your news. Yes, the weather sure has been cold and a little bleak. Usually winter is my favourite time of year, but with the blues inside of me, the blues on the outside are a little too dark right now.

Trying to secure an appointment is being a little tedious. I was proactive over the weekend and pointed out q a few mental health questionaries so people really get how I am feeling as I am not always good at expressing how bad things really are.

I took copies of the information in for my GP today and posted some off to the intended psychiatrist I am hoping to see...when he eventually receives one of the three referrals my Dr has sent to him.

Mean time I have been making some healthy soup, have plans now to draw designs on the painted shells and will then varnish them. I was going to start that tonight then my friend phoned and we had a chat for about an hour.

My fine line painting skills are rather lousy, so a black texta is a good alternative! Ha. Ha.

I borrow a couple of books today from the library on stress, depression and anxiety. One looks very interesting and has a one page description of how people from around the world find a sense of calm. I hope to start reading it tomorrow.

Some of the ideas mentioned are "horse keeping" not sure about that one. The last horse I rode tried to throw me off. Ha. Ha.

Growing Bonsai or a herbal garden, having a bath with hot rocks tipped in along with herbal leaves and bark...apparently a specialty in Bhutan! Drumming is also mentioned, as is Chinese water Calligraphy, chanting, worry dolls and doing the tango to name a few.

Certainly sounds like a few interesting choices there!

I really do need to make the time to do some things that make me feel better about myself and life in general. I'm usually up at 5.30 a.m. anyway. I don't think I want to get up at 5.00! It isn't light until 7.00 anyway!

We are very lucky, we have lots of spots to sit in the garden. Problem is the traffic noise is bad 24 hours a day and the neighbours dog barks now even when I open the back door.

Hope you have a good day at your parent's on Wednesday and the boys enjoy themselves too.

One of my older friends told me her grandson caught all of her goldfish one day and lay them out to dry in the sun because they were wet! Oh dear!

Thanks for keeping in touch and for the encouragement!

Cheers from Lauren

Hi Indra,

I'm glad that your mum is on the mend :)

My walk last Saturday morning was epic. When I told some friends at work about it they said, no Kerri that's a hike! Yes it was... I went to White Rock Nature Park - the walk to White Rock took quite a while and there was a set of stairs which were really difficult. It was the biggest thing that I'd done in a while, but I am glad that I did it.  I was still recovering on Wednesday - I'd pulled a leg muscle. I'm okay now though.

This weekend I am going to take it a little more easy - I am going for a walk around a lake, which will be all flat and much more relaxing.  I won't need any recovery time which is the best thing!

What do you have planned for your weekend? Did you have a good week?

Kerri

Mrs Dools,

Thanks for telling me what Doolhof means... I'd wondered and just assumed it was a made up name or acronym or something.  I'm sorry that you haven't been going so well. Did you end up going to hospital? Glad that you have been able to focus on some positives... I like the way that you write :)

Growing a Bonsai or drumming, come on Mrs Dools what are you going to try new this week? haha

I'm trying to learn how to crochet but I can't seem to learn by doing this online so I am going to have to find someone to help me do it in person. Surely someone I know can show me how to do it... I have a new niece or nephew (gender is a secret) due in October, so I want to crochet something cute! And a friend of mine is having a baby around that time too - a boy who will be named Ollie.

What do you have planned for your weekend? I'm off for a much needed hair appointment tomorrow morning. A special treat - I am going to get some colour done this time, I can see grey hairs!

Hope you, Indra, and everyone else enjoys their weekend.

-Kerri

Hi Kerri,

Lovely to chat with you. The weekend is half done. Yesterday my husband helped me with the photo booth machines so I could print out some holiday photos from years ago, so that was nice. Took hours, but I can now check that off the list.

Funny about the drums, I just received an invitation from a friend who is having a bonfire and drumming night! The bad news is that we are already attending a different friend's 50th Birthday that night. I would have loved to have been a part of that experience!

Maybe I can ask this girlfriend if she can have another drumming night when I am free to attend!

Mmmm. Something different to try this weekend. Not quite sure what that might be. I will have to think about it. I am hoping to wash the windows and do some gardening...but I don't think that really counts unless I wash the windows while on stilts perhaps! Ha. Ha.

I haven't been to hospital yet, but if it is deemed really necessary then I should listen to the professionals and do as they recommend.

On Wednesday I have a computer hook up with a psychiatrist at the hospital, that will be a new way of doing things for me. Apparently a mental health nurse will be assisting as well so I will see how all of that goes.

Regarding crocheting, pop on down to your local old folks home, one of the ladies there would probably be thrilled to show you how to crochet. Best thing is, the homes are open 24/7 so the old dears will be available after working hours and on weekends!

Cheers from Mrs. Dools (Need to get ready for Church!)

Hi Lauren,

What you are going to do with the shells sounds really creative, I left my natural in a large round bowl, looks like a large fish bowl, they look good though.  The carafes with the swirls on them sound lovely to, its a pity we can't include pictures on here as I would love to see them finished.

I'm sorry to hear you are having trouble with work changes, nothing ever seems to stay the same does it and most humans can't handle change very well, I know I can't.

Asking people for help, nah not my thing either.  I brought my cat a new scratching post yesterday, the store keeper asked if I wanted him to put it in the car for me so of course I said yes, when I got back to my unit I struggled to get it out of the car.  There were two people talking in the car park and I couldn't ask them for help, luckily one came over and carried it into my unit for me.  I am fiercely independent and don't like asking for help but my body is failing me at times and I do need to learn to ask for help both physically and mentally.

I connect with people easily here on BB to, I think because everyone is anonymous we can be more ourselves and also be open and honest.

Hows you depression going atm, has it improved any, I have taken a bit of a dive this weekend, not really sure why but I was doing well last week but it never seems to last long.  I know that is a negative and I am trying to think positively but I do agree depression sucks.  Some counselling appointments sound good for you right now, even if they are done over the phone it might help.  Having to wait for a psychiatrist appointment also sucks but they seem to be in high demand at present, this could be because everyone is talking more about mental illness now than they use to.

As I said hope you are feeling better now. Looks like you have a few new people to talk to on her of late, that might help.

Sending hugs your way.

Anne

Dear Anne,

Hi. I hope your cat uses the new scratching pole. Our cat seems to prefer the lounge suit! It is a good thing the person in the car park at your place came to your assistance.

Asking for help isn't always the easiest of things to do, especially when you have received knock backs in the past. Guess the thing is to realise that not everyone will give you a hard time if you ask for help!

I tried chatting with our minister at Church today about my depression, but was soon shut down. It is a good thing I believe in God and not in the minister!

I'm reading a book at the moment about a young boy's experience in heaven. The book hasn't yet confirmed that he actually died during an emergency operation, but is very interesting reading.

I have placed the shells in a large glass container used for preserves. The shells look great in all their different colours now I have painted and drawn on them. I am sure your shells in the bowl look lovely. I had picked up the plain white shells purposely to paint and decorate.

Sorry to read you have taken a bit of a nose dive with your depression. I hope you are able to rise back up out of it again soon.

After Church I bought a nice plant for the kitchen table then decided to clean the windows, vacuum and cleaned the car. I was exhausted after that so had a lovely snooze before I went down and let the chooks out for a while.

Monday I have a double appointment with my Dr to organise a mental health care plan and chat about the coming appointment with a psychiatrist via computer hook up at the local hospital. That will be an interesting way to do things!

Hope you have some nice plans for the week ahead. I hope to go swimming again in the morning.

Cheers for now from Lauren

Hi Indra and Anne,

Just thinking of you both and hoping you are doing okay.

Cheers for now from Lauren

Hi Lauren,

Sorry to have read that you have been doing it tough recently - I hope the stay in hospital has given you time to rest and get back on track. I did read the upside was having your meals cooked for you - that would be nice! I could tell you were sounding not quite yourself in some of the older posts - I am one for giving people some space and not to bombard. I am glad that you are back here now!

For us, we have been up and down and all over the place. I have had some real lows, but moving forward a step and sometimes sideway step at a time. The boys have been a bit of work of late with their behaviours, but will delve in to my endless amount of patience - that is the only thing that I am patient for lol

Feel for you when I read that you hadn't been receiving support from either the church or CFS. I feel sometimes people are disinterested in other people - either it is too had or they don't want to get involved either from being to busy or disinterest. I hope it changes for you.

Thank you for thinking of me - make sure you take care of yourself - BB is a better place by having you here!

Cheers Lauren,

Indra

Hi Indra,

Thanks for your message and best wishes. I hope you and the boys manage to find some balance in your lives. It sounds to me like you do an amazing job with them and they are so lucky to have you as their Mum!

One of my girlfriends just turned 50 and her daughter put out a beautiful message on facebook about how much she loves and appreciates her Mum. It was so heart warming to read. You Mum's do an amazing job, as do Dad's as well of course.

Life for me has been a bit of a struggle lately, but at long last it looks like I am on the road to getting some help so I can learn new ways of coping with stuff and getting on with life in a healthier fashion.

Hopefully the new medication will work for me too. I didn't do so well without it! Ha. Ha. That is a bit of an understatement really!

I now have a bit more energy so am enjoying my walking again. I saw a huge kangaroo the other day and that was amazing. I have been feeding some grass to some goats just up the road. One must be an angora, as her hair/fur is so soft and luxurious. She almost looks like she has a soft perm. Ha. Ha.

For a bit of a change I have been taking CDs to play in the car as I am driving around with work. I had Meatloaf playing the other day. I just have to remember to turn the volume down when I am taking an old dear to the shops. I am not sure they would enjoy having their ears battered by Meat loaf!

We don't have much planned for the weekend and hope to finally get some sheep for the bottom part of our 5 acre block. One of the framers from CFS is going to loan us the sheep to help keep the grass down. I am looking forward to seeing them.

I have a friend in Holland who loves sheep, so I will be sending her photos of our new lawnmowers!

A lady from CFS did come and visit yesterday so that was really nice. I appreciated that. I guess people are just busy and have their own problems to deal with.

Hope you and the boys are keeping well. It has been so cold here that the water pipes froze a couple of days ago! So did the water in the chook house!

Thanks for your message.

Cheers for now, from Lauren

Hi Lauren,

I'm glad to hear you are getting some help at long last, hope it helps.

Wow that would have been wonderful to see a kangaroo on you walks, nature is wonderful.  I live in the suburbs so don't see kangaroos or goats.  I see and hear lots of birds, two kookaburras were on the telephone pole the other day and talking loudly, beautiful.  We see lots of rainbow lorrikets and if you take time to listen you hear lots of different birds.

I like Meatloaf.  I have a Pink cd and one song has swearing in it and I tend to have that blaring so need to turn that down or I get funny looks, an older women listening to Pink swearing gets funny looks.

When I was growing up a house near us had a sheep to mow its grass, it was tethered and moved about during the day, strange to see but the sheep did the job.

I am struggling with my depression still, a big day coming up next month so once that is over I am hoping things will settle some.  I have been told by my psychologist that the depression will always be there I just hope it lessens enough so I can get on with my life and manage it ok.

Hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Hugs

A

I am going out to lunch today,  I am in the process of changing my name back to my maiden name and two friends and I are looking for a restaurant for celebrations.  Big step for me to change my name, saying good bye to the old me and welcoming in the new me. Its a positive step that I think is time to make.  I made a list of places I would have to notify and it came to 15, I'm sure I will find others.

Hi Anne,

It is lovely to hear from you again. Congratulations to you for wanting to and being able to go and change your name. Just make sure you hold on to that certificate and have it handy, as you may need to use it for proof of identification.

I changed my name back after my first marriage, and on some legal documents I need proof of my first married name, my change of name and now my new married name! Hope you have a lovely celebration.

The sheep are interesting to watch. A couple of them butt heads now and then. We have some trees down  the back as well and the sheep use them to rub themselves against. One was rubbing his/her head and looked so cute. I am going to go and spend a little more time with them later this morning.

My sister has just contacted me and says she would like to come and visit today along with my niece, so I will have to get a move on to complete all the little jobs I have been putting off all week! 

Tomorrow I have Church and then will catch up with some friends in the city for a late lunch. The weekend will soon be over and done with.

I have decided to take one day a fortnight off work. I don't do a lot of hours, but travel a lot and that is just making me so tired at present. I have explained to my husband that I need that to be my day to do what ever I need to help make myself better.

Hopefully after that big day next month, you will be able to release some of the depression and tension you have been building up for so long.

You mentioned you like PINK. We have an older friend who adores PINK and has all of her CDs. Is PINK still very popular? I hear the songs on the radio but have no idea who is singing them!

It is lovely to hear the birds isn't it. Our problem is that we live very close to a main highway, so despite living in a small town we have so much traffic noise 24 hours a day. Sometimes it almost drives me nuts. I would love to live somewhere quiet!

When we first looked at the house, I told my husband the traffic noise was horrendous, but he said what noise? I guess having worked in a factory for 30 years the traffic noise was nothing to him. Now he notices it as well. It was a lot quieter where we lived in the suburbs. Oh well. Guess you can't have everything!

Hope you have a good weekend Anne.

Cheers and cyber hugs to you, from Lauren

Hi Indra,

Just a quick hello to say "Goodaye" and hoping you and the boys are okay.

Cheers, from Lauren

Hi Lauren,

Life has been a little topsy turvy of late. We have had a house of flu - everyone is slowly on the mend. My poor eldest son was hit by it hardest. That is what I find the hardest when the boys are ill.

I have had a few highs and many lows recently - I guess all part of this rollercoaster that we are riding. I have read a few threads and hear that you now have some wooly additions! Good lawnmowers they make!

Hoping things have gotten a little brighter for you of late - at times I have some trouble coping, but lately haven't had much strength to reach out.  Loneliness can be an aggressive hunter - even when you get to meet people.

Tackling the mundane tomorrow, had a weekend away and after everyone being ill, I need to catch up around the house on some things. Unfortunately that never goes away lol

Wishing you well Lauren,

Take care and thanks for saying hi!

Indra

Hi Indra,

I am sorry to read you have all had flu. That is one thing I have never experienced, cold, bronchitis and pneumonia yes, but not flu.

I'm also sorry to read you have had quite a few low moments in your life recently.

I know what you mean regarding not feeling like keeping in touch with anyone. Sometimes when depression hits, it is a bit difficult to reach out and keep in touch with people.

Yes, we do have some borrowed sheep. They are not all that friendly yet, not sure if they ever will be as we are not going to have them for ever. They are doing a great job eating the grass and weeds and are making a lot of fertilizer! Ha. Ha.

The chooks are keeping well also. They are getting very good at running away from me when I let them roam around in the garden! I wouldn't mind so much if it wasn't for the foxes!

My clients are keeping me busy. One dear lady had me take her to the pet shop recently to help her bring home a canary. Hopefully this one will sing for her, other wise she will get rid of it! Ha. Ha.

Guess the canary will be one more thing I will help her clean up after when I visit hger. As long as she gets some pleasure out of the bird, that is the main thing.

I hope you are all feeling better soon.

Cheers for now from Lauren

Hi Veanon,

Thanks for sharing what is happening for you. It must be very tough for you finding yourself on your own with the children.

It is wonderful your sister was able to be with you and to help you out for a while. I am sure you will miss her.

Do you have friends whom you can invite over to visit now and then to help with this loneliness and hard time you are dealing with?

You may not feel like it now, but do you have hobbies and interests that you enjoy doing to help pass the time?

Are there any groups in your area you could join to be around other people?

I'm not sure if you have started up your own post on the forum somewhere. Maybe if you are wanting to reach out to more people you could do that.

Wishing you well in this difficult time. I'm not a Mum so don't really know what life must be like for you right now.

Cheers for now from Lauren