Well looks like I'm out of the labyrinth. Pacing myself and stepping cautiously but am optimistic and that's just wonderful beyond description. To all those members who feel there is no way to claw out of that cold black pit of hell.... well, I've done it twice now... well once and a half as I'm not quite out of the woods yet, though I think I'm at the top of the hole for sure :-)
Centrelink was hard work given how bad I was so I gave up on that. The job agencies were sucky commercial clinics that just drove me nuts. I could and did do better without them. I actually did what I've been aiming to do for a year now, and that's get out of the line of work I've been in for over twenty years. Not only do I have a job that is kinder to my bipolar but it is close enough to home that I can walk and it also pays fractionally more than my last two jobs did. I save $ on public transport and I don't have to run the peak hour or CDB gauntlet with my agoraphobia.I can also afford my power, rent and medication now.
The medication is working wonderfully. I'm so relieved.
Definitely turned a corner.