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Topic: Sunshine and Fresh Air

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  1. OhmeOhmy
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    24 June 2016

    Good Morning Everyone,

    This morning as I lay in bed a battle was being fought within me, do I face the world today or do I hide away and slip down that slope into the waiting darkness. I want to live my life well, I want to feel healthy and happy, I want to feel empowered and I know that the only way that can happen is if I listen to that inner knowing, that gentle persistent whisper that urges me to connect with nature and to move my body. I got up and I went to the gym for the first time in weeks, only half an hour but I moved my body and got my blood flowing faster, sending oxygen and life to every cell in my being, reminding me how good it feels to be alive. As I drove home I knew I had to do more, that persistent knowing again. When I got home I took my jacket off even though its cold and I walked at a good pace down to the lake. I focused on the sun on my skin and the cool air, I listened to the birds and I took a minute to stop and stare out over the water. Tears came to my eyes as I felt gratitude for nature. Nature so giving in its beauty and energy, so cleansing and healing. My mood is better than it has been for several weeks now and I know without a doubt that if I want to feel better I have to listen to the inner knowing and take action. If I don't listen the knowing will get louder to get my attention, it may present as anxiety, it may start screaming at me desperate to to get my attention and guide me back to wellness.

    My friends I have been feeling myself sinking back into that scary place for several weeks now, that dark, sad and lonely place that far too many of us are familiar with but today I won the battle, I listened and I took action and I think I will again tomorrow.

    May sunshine and fresh air reach every one of you today and every day.

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  2. white knight
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    24 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hi, welcome

    I've found in my past as a working man with similar desire to slip wonder the blankets, to not imagine the challenge to go to work. Rather one small step at a time.

    Rise, shower, deep breathe, then you are more awake and facing the day us easier.

    Thankyou for your appreciation of life. You'd love my fav YouTube clip Maharaji Prem Rawat sunset. Give him a try.

    Tony WK

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  3. OhmeOhmy
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    24 June 2016 in reply to white knight

    Hi Tony,

    I just watched that YouTube clip and you are right, I love it.

    Nature is so powerful in it's ability to heal but its so simple that we tend to overlook it. We often think my pain is so complicated and intense at times that I must need a complicated cure or answer. Not always, for me today it was fresh air and sunshine.

    Thanks for responding, it's nice to be able to share a moment like this and it helps to connect with others when you are fighting to stay out of that dark place

  4. Zeal
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    24 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hi!

    Thanks for your refreshing post!

    I'm glad you faced the world today, got moving and appreciated nature. It can be hard to get outside and get moving. I have OCD (anxiety), and I find it hard to motivate myself to exercise and get in the sun. I started walking regularly about two weeks ago, which I have enjoyed. I haven't walked for the past few days because I had an exam yesterday and found it hard with all the rain we're having in my state!

    All the best,

    SM

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  5. white knight
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    24 June 2016 in reply to Zeal

    Another one is

    Maharaji Prem Rawat the perfect instrument.

    He has many clips

    They elevate me every time.

    Regards

    Tony WK

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  6. pipsy
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    25 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hi OhmeOhmy. Like you I am fighting inner battles at the moment with a health scare. I too felt myself slipping, but with sheer willpower, determination, plus the never-ending support from here, my sunshine has returned full strength. I think these life tests are sent to remind us to stay on top, no matter how hard it may get. Depression, if allowed to take hold can be cruel and unending. Fighting does take strength, but when we have emotional support here and personal friends, the fight gets easier. Being able to stay on the top rung of the ladder is a personal victory over depression. More power to you and others fighting inner demons, I include myself here.

    Lynda

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  7. OhmeOhmy
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    25 June 2016 in reply to pipsy

    Thanks SM, Tony and Pipsy, the fact that you understand where I'm at and how difficult it can be just to go outside some days really helps. Today is a new day and I will be going to my daughters netball game so will get some fresh air and sunshine there. The wind is freezing but that's ok I will rug up. One day at a time. '

    I find my diet contributes significantly to my state of mind too and lately I have been snacking on sugary foods. I was feeling pretty good after getting out yesterday and then last night snacked on junk food which which actually altered my mood negatively so lesson learned and today I will eat well. I'm determined not to slide all the way down that slope and hit rock bottom. After being there several times its terrifying to think of going back there.

  8. blondguy
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    25 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hello OhmeOhmy

    I admire they way you can cleanse yourself and looking at the bigger picture. When I need a break I go outside and stand in the sun close my eyes and self energize. Maybe its a type of meditation? Either way I know it works.

    A wonderful post :-). Paul

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  9. OhmeOhmy
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    25 June 2016 in reply to blondguy

    Hi Paul,

    Yes sunshine makes a big difference. I can imagine you turning your face up to the sun and smiling. I notice I have to work harder to stay well in winter, at first I thought I was imagining it but now I realise that sunshine on your skin is so important. I went out today however it was to a crowded netball game of my daughters with lots of stuff going on around me and to be honest it didn't work for me today. I have decided to get up in the morning and walk tomorrow by myself if its sunny. I like solitude in nature.

    I have ready a fair few of your posts and they (as well as the other people who have posted on this thread) are always so helpful, real and kind. I mostly read and rarely post. This site has been the place I go to when I need to connect to others. In my world I have to be strong, I am the one that holds it together for my family and here I don't have to be. It really helps to have that space in my life.

    I hope that every one of you people who post regularly to support others that you are making a huge difference in peoples lives. You are saving people. So many people read and never post but they keep coming back to read because it is a place to draw strength and comfort from. It's a place to be real and raw and to be supported in that. Thank you BB and all the regular posters, you know who you are. I do anyway xo

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  10. blondguy
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    25 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hey OhmeOhmy

    Thankyou for the support Ohme! Its means a great deal to me and others on the forums to receive a heartfelt response like you have written :-) You are in the majority as the bulk of people on the forums read the BB forums and choose not to post which is fine.

    I live with my Chow Chow german shep cross (60+kilos) and it really is a bonus to read a post like yours. You mentioned 5 simple words that meant so much......."I like solitude in nature" When I go to the ocean beach near Phillip Island (Kilcunda) I also find peace as you do..in solitude.

    Out of respect for you, just some info so you know who you are talking too:-) Acute (had) anxiety since 1983 and depression since 1997. On meds since 1997. (I was in denial prior to 1997 and thought I could 'soldier on'...it doesnt work....not for me anyway.

    As you have to be strong (for very good reasons) I wont insult your intelligence with any advice...You dont really need any:-) You are more than welcome to post as many times as you wish...It could many others.

    Be 'gentle' to yourself

    My kindest thoughts for you

    Paulx

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  11. Baz1956
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    26 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Dear Ohmeohmys, Thank you for such a beautiful post! I agree with you that sometimes we just have to push through the darkness and get out into nature. For me that means getting out for a walk even though all I want to do is hide beneath the covers. I'm blessed to have a wonderful wife who's always ready to join me for a walk.In our area there is a network of walking paths the wind through beautiful parkland. As we walk I forget my stresses and worries and get lost in the sights and sounds of the little world around me.

    I often gaze at the huge Gum trees that stand so tall and strong and wonder how many seasons they've been there reaching for the sky. I muse about how they have been there longer than I have been making my way through life. It might sound silly but I reckon in a way they have just been waiting for me to walk beneath them and forget my fears and anxiety's.

    Most day's we do about three k's. But at least once a week we walk a ten k circuit that takes us past a lake which is our half way mark. We stop and have a thermos of coffee and admire the water birds and just sit peacefully in each others company. It's at these times when I feel most alive. It's as if the veil of mental illness lifts and I see nature, my wife and myself in a fresh light.

    I'm not sure I can put into words what walking does for my mental health, but I just know it works. Maybe it's just the act of making one step after another. And I reckon that's what the battle with depression and anxiety is like. If I try and do too much I fall on my bum. It's only when I tackle it one day at a time, that I feel like I'm winning.

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  12. OhmeOhmy
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    28 June 2016 in reply to Baz1956

    Thank you Baz, I loved reading your post, it really resonated with me. I understand what you are saying about the trees, I do the same thing in fact my favorite thing to do is to look at the sky through the trees. I have even hugged a few trees in my time haha I'm glad I read your post today because I am having a particularly hard day and I know I need to go for a walk but I am struggling. Your post just gave me the motivation. It always confuses me that I know that going out in the fresh air and sunshine are good for me and will make me feel better and yet some days I find it so hard to do.

    I wish you and your wife a beautiful day.

    Hey Paul,

    Thank you for your reply, I actually wrote quite a long reply straight away which had me thinking deeply as I wrote it and when i clicked post, my computer froze and the message was lost. I was so disappointed because it took me ages to write. I shut my laptop and decided to leave it for a while.

    Chow Chow sounds beautiful and I bet gives so much unconditional love. He weighs more than me lol and I'm sure he eats you out of house and home :) I live with my 17 year old son who started his first year of uni this year, my 12 year daughter who started high school and my 3 year old daughter who started preschool this year. Thank you for sharing with me, I have had anxiety and depression on and off since childhood and only in the last couple of years am I recognising my triggers and managing my symptoms better. Previously I thought there was something fundamentally wrong with me, I was ashamed of myself for being weak and I was angry at myself for being unwell. I thought I was selfish and self indulgent for being depressed. I didn't understand. I do now. Today I am having a hard day. I have been going between tears and distracting myself with housework. I thought logging on here would help and as usual it does because at least I'm telling someone that today I'm struggling. I am going to try and get outside for a walk. I will post again later.

    I wish you a wonderful day x

  13. blondguy
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    28 June 2016 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hey OhMe

    What a wonderful reply. Isnt it a pain when the computer freezes and you lose a well thought out post?

    Having that dark teary place isnt any fun..I feel for you on that. I remember being the same like it was yesterday. I just finished in the garden and read your post. You also have a lot happening with your daughters and son.

    I am glad you have logged on . I hope you can have some peace coming OhMe...You are a great communicator who is also caring and kind.

    You are not alone

    Paulx

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  14. OhmeOhmy
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    5 September 2017
    This last week has been particularly difficult, so I logged on and read some old posts which has helped. I still want to hide away from the world for a while but that just isn't an option for me at the moment so I have to find the strength to push through.
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    6 September 2017 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    Hi OhmeOhmy

    Its a major pain when we are feeling the way you are this week. It can be so hard to function when our brain is misbehaving itself. Your situation can be even more difficult as you are a mum (and a great one) 24 hours a day.

    You must be so proud of your children...Your son starting Uni.....your daughter starting high school and your wee one starting preschool :-) You are really a supermum and congrats!

    I hope the dark clouds part for you soon

    My kind thoughts

    Paul

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  16. OhmeOhmy
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    15 September 2017 in reply to blondguy

    Thanks Paul,

    It's frustrating feeling so sad, I feel guilty for feeling like this. I work hard to feel good and then there are times like the last few weeks when no matter what I just can't shift these feelings. It's like it's just coming at me from all angles and I have that anxious uncomfortable feeling in my belly constantly, my confidence has disappeared and I don't know what sets this all off. I am half through studying my masters and I can't help but think how will I do the work I want to do when these feelings can come back and get me like this. I'm just having a bad day today, I know things won't look so bad again one day soon. It's just the fact that no matter what I do I can't stop it from coming back.

  17. blondguy
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    15 September 2017 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    No worries OhmeOhmy :-)

    Its really nice that you have posted back. The forums are non judgemental but if I may give you a serious compliment.......You are halfway through your masters and being a super mum? You are an amazing person and I wish I had 50% of your strength....seriously

    I understand the guilt you are experiencing when you feel so sad and frustrated. Your confidence is still well and alive........there are some dark clouds that are blocking your confidence and mojo at the moment. The dark clouds will part for you thus exposing the confidence that has and will always be there as you are strong.

    You will feel so much better if you can have a huge vent to someone face to face. I still see my GP every 4 weeks for a 'fine tune'. You have a ton on your plate right now. Do you have anyone that you can vent to? You would know anyway but doing so is a great cleanser

    Great to have you as part of the forums Ohme

    My kind thoughts for you and your family :-)

    Paul

  18. OhmeOhmy
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    17 September 2017 in reply to blondguy

    Thanks Paul,

    Your posts help me feel less isolated and it's good to know others understand these feelings. Thank you for your kind words about being a super Mum, made me smile for real. I rang the BB helpline Friday and talked to someone about what is going on for me at the moment. The lady on the end of the phone was so kind, she listened and I was able to tell her how things were getting on top of me. My Mum has late stage Alzheimer's and my Dad cares for her full time at home. I help out as much as I can, a few times a week to give him a rest. I am struggling with her behaviours, she talks non stop, it's like a constant stream of consciousness and some of it is so dark and horrible to hear. She hallucinates both visually and auditory. Usually I cope well but the last few weeks I feel like I am sinking. I have decided to see my GP and get a referral to see someone. I have the name of a psychologist that a friend told me is very good. So I will try to see her. I know I have lots going on in my life however this feeling I have at the moment is like a generalised feeling of anxiety and sadness and it's so familiar. It comes and goes in my life regardless of what's going on, I think that I'm just more worried than usual at the moment because I feel like there is so much on the line and I don't want to stuff things up.

    Thank you for reaching out, it helps more than you know. My Mum is next to me as I type talking non stop :)

  19. OhmeOhmy
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    31 May 2021 in reply to OhmeOhmy

    I just read though this old thread as I’ve been struggling lately and I remembered how much this forum helped me in the past.
    it felt like I was reading someone else’s words when I read mine, or like I was giving advice to my future self.
    I really need to start walking again. I haven’t done it in many months and it’s impacting my ability to cope.
    My last post I said that I was typing as I sat next to my Mum. She died in March last 2020 and she is not suffering anymore. I miss well her and now I’m able to grieve her. It hits out of the blue and it’s physical. I never knew grief could make your chest and throat ache.
    Sunshine and fresh air, sounds like a plan.

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