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Topic: This bipolar life

  1. velvetfaerie
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    3 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    I physically ache from a little too much walking, drinks and bad food.

    So it was a fun day/evening with an aftermath ahhaaha.

    Not sure if hypomanic or just not caring at the moment. You pose a good question Quirky!

    I will ponder this.

    v.

  2. Airies
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    3 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hi All,

    ive become very judgemental and less tolerant. Shoyldnt watch the news as its all bad , sick of the quips the newsreaders make and turning into a right old fart. Excercising, eating and off for a short holiday , Yumm Food, heat and massages. Then hit my groove once I get back. That's the plan..... Hangon I live day to day,

    cheers

  3. quirkywords
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    3 October 2019 in reply to Airies

    Aries, and greeting a to all,

    Enjoy your holiday on day at a time.

    I was born a grumpy old woman and I get impatient at times at smug people who feel entitled.

    Quirky

  4. Airies
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    5 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Quirky,

    thanks, will be ok once I get there. My better half deserves a relaxing break. Have to watch alcohol and food choices. Bad experience last year.

    V that's great news about your friend on IVF. We went through the rollercoaster ride that is IVF 30 years ago. So glad that this one stuck. Day light saving coming that will take some adjusting to. Roll on the warmer weather,

    cheers

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    5 October 2019 in reply to Airies

    Hello everyone

    Aries,

    I hope you both have a relaxing time on your holiday. You and your wife sound like you have a great relationship.

    I am on my 3rd major relationship, so long relationships, well longer than 20 years are not my forte.

    If relationship were a course I would get a D!!

    Quirky

  6. velvetfaerie
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    5 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Yay holiday! Have fun Airies and be good ! Hehehehe.

    I believe medical advances are for people to benefit from. If it is babies, no babies, nips and tucks, curing nasty diseases, it’s good for quality of life - mentally and physically!! Hence I fixed the eyes!

    Long term relationships are not my forte either Quirky. My track record is embarrassing!! **blush**

    v.

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    6 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    hi folks,

    Velvet,

    in my family I was the first person to ever divorce and most of my friends and exrended family are with their first spouse.

    Iam not embarrassed, it is what it is , but I am sure some in my family see me as a wild woman.

    I had a friend I hadn’t heard from years phone me to asl for advice.

    I was thinking it may be about business or mental health but now she said you know a lot about marriage break ups and settlements can you help me with a family member.

    I was a bit floored as now I am the relationship break up expert!!!!!

    funny how others see us.

    Quirky

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    7 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hello all

    ok who finds it hard to change?

    Quirky

  9. velvetfaerie
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    8 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    If it is change for the better and myself, no problem. If it is change to accommodate the selfish needs of others, we have a problem.

    Currently very angry at work and I told my boss what I thought yesterday. She is COOL THOUGH. I said I am sick of wiping the backsides of people who are on higher wages than I am - I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE! I am also sick of accommodating others so they can have their flexible hours and I am not allowed any flexibility. Apparently my life is worth less than those with families and kids. Unfortunately that is a very hurtful thing to feel for more than one reason!

    We had an internal survey run - we are a huge employer. The results for my corner of work are damning for those in positions of authority. Discrimination. Bullying. Lack of team work and communication. No opportunities given to the staff. Etc. Good timing. We are currently among a restructure!

    So starting tomorrow, I am not going to be so diligent with my start times. And if they want to buck up, I am filing a discrimination complaint with the state governing authority.

    V.

    Over it.

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    8 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hello everyone,

    Velvet, I hope things begin to change for the better at your work. The conditions you describe would harm anyone's mental health and the expectations you work has that will help others without any reciprocation is not fair.

    I feel every worker who works hard needs flexibility to cater to their individual needs.

    feel you are on a mission and the challenge has just begun.

    Look after your self and cover yourself with emotional armour.

    I think you are right when you say when we chose the change and the time and place it is very different from when the change is imposed upon us by others.

    Quirky

  11. velvetfaerie
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    8 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    thanks Quirky. I can absolutely attest to the fact this place destroys people. I am just a bit stubborn. Many colleagues have come and go and had to be on medication to work here. The managers wangle the rules to suit themselves. There is no TEAM. It is only them, getting the big pays for doing the least actual work. EXCEPT my boss. She is the one and only exception to the rule. They play her as well. Hence we stick together.

    I am just, not upset, mildly cranky, silently belligerent now!

    I have changed a little for myself. Trying to eat less junk food HAHAHA. :D

    V.

  12. velvetfaerie
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    9 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Just told my boss I feel I am being taken advantage of in this workplace.

    She had a shocked look and was dead silent.

    I am fed up. I just submitted my damning appraisal.

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    9 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Well done velvet.

    Stand up for yourself .

    You are honest and hardworking.

    Quirky

  14. velvetfaerie
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    10 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    like my friends who are in town and on holidays. They phoned me late at night, waking me up - I ignored the call, wanting to catch up.

    The level of selfishness in people is getting beyond a joke.

    Ranty........... :D

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    10 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hello everyone,

    Velvet, are they selfish or ignorant or both.

    Quirky

  16. velvetfaerie
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    10 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Both i think.

    I think the more you give, the kinder you are, the more people want.

    The more they drain you.

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    10 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hello everyone,

    I feel the more we give the more we may;let people drain us

    I suppose one needs to set boundaries.

    Quirky

  18. velvetfaerie
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    11 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Set boundaries and not care. Which I am today. My friends who want to catch up, who didn't commit to anything then wonder why I am fully booked now - too bad.

    I don't care. I am going to enjoy what I am doing and not feel guilty. I have tried to meet half way somehow but, too hard it seems. Ok. I have a life too guys! :/

    So much walking today. So good. I am going to be stuffed by the end of today. All the walking and I woke up at a ridiculous time!

    Man thing is picking me up later for sushi and beer :D (Lucky i am doing all of this walking!).

    I hope everyone has good stuff going on this weekend?

    V.

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    12 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Greetings to all

    Does anyone reading this never or really ever feels guilty.

    I feel guilty a lot and the more I try not to the worse I really feel.

    People say move on, don't dwell and ruminate on the past and I do try but it comes back and I can feel guilty about anything and everything from things that do not matter to huge things that really do matter.

    If I try hard and don't feel guilty later I will feel guilty I didn't feel guilty.

    Am I alone here or can others relate to this?

    Quirky

  20. Airies
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    12 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Hello Quirky,

    i don't feel guilty, rarely as its all about me. So self centred and focused on me. Been hete a week and debating on another tatoo. Cheaper to get at home and far less hassle. Common sense says wait so hopefully common sense will prevail. Cheers

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    12 October 2019 in reply to Airies

    Greetings all

    Aries don’t you feel guilty if it is all about you?

    the words common sense and tattoo don’t really appear in same sentence.

    Quirky

  22. Airies
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    13 October 2019

    Quirky,

    its never too late to get a tatoo.will get mine done at home. Resist temptation. Constant craving seeing satisfaction. Something never gained,

    cheers

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    13 October 2019 in reply to Airies

    Hello everyone,

    Aries, I confessed I used to judge people who had tattoos, but now I am more openhanded. When I was growing up not many people had tattoos. Now I sell books about tattoos.

    Welcome to new posters having a read.

  24. velvetfaerie
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    14 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Popping in to say hi, and stuff.

    I am fending off a cold. My own doing because I went full tilt fri/sat/sun.

    Chilli, mmmmmmm

    A tattoo is cheaper in Aus than in Bali? 0.o

    V.

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    14 October 2019 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hello folks

    velvet I have a hacking cough that has been holding on for weeks. So annoying !

    Quirky

  26. LaTeRaLuS777
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    14 October 2019 in reply to quirkywords

    Hi everyone, im new here. I

    also have Bipolar and i feel like i have to hide it from people at work by saying im tired or had too much coffee etc.

    Tonight i am taking the advice of the lovely person at BeyondBlue chat who suggested i do something constructive/creative with my night instead of being paranoid and giving in to dark thoughts (my words, not hers) and so here i am, sharing.

    umm... not sure where to go from here except to say thank you for being wonderful people and giving me hope as i read your thread! really helped, a lot.

    I am medicated and seeing a psych regularly which is good and i am channeling my creativity into a game project (which i keep getting distracted from, thank you SOOooo much OCD/BPD! lol)...

    I will keep this short. Thank you and i look forward to chatting/sharing with you soon when im out of this dark spiral.

    ps: i have a tattoo, it covers my whole upper back! it took me years to finally draw it and get it done but i love it :) It gives me confidence in certain situations even though they cant see it, I know its there hahaha!

  27. velvetfaerie
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    15 October 2019 in reply to LaTeRaLuS777

    I have tattoos. Six in fact. More coming soon once I financially recover from this year. All money well spent ;)

    Welcome to this epic group. It is funny you mention distractions. My man thing was commenting yesterday how I simply cannot keep still/focus on tv/movies and stuff. He is right. I get distracted way too much! Mind just goes on walkabout.

    Feel free to vent here. Chat. All the things.

    The beyond blue service is THE BEST

  28. quirkywords
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    15 October 2019 in reply to LaTeRaLuS777

    Greetings to all,

    LaTeRaLuS

    I am so glad you found this friendly and supportive thread.

    I think distraction is my middle name!! I am always being told I cant concentrate and have the concentration of a gnat.

    The great thing about this thread is you can be yourself say something and others will nod and say yes I can relate.

    I have often said I am just a bit tired , which I usually am to people I do not wish to explain my life story over morning tea!

    I am so ignorant I don't know what a game project is??

    Quirky

    Quirky

  29. LaTeRaLuS777
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    15 October 2019

    HI Velvet, Quirky and Everyone... thanks for the warm welcome!

    Firstly for the sake of saving your fingers from spasms by typing "LaTeRaLuS777" (lol) I am happy to be called by the shorter name of "L7" (which both saves time and my ocd likes how its almost a mirror image or a square)...

    Today was tough but im home now and im going to work on some artwork for my Auntie's birthday and then on to the game project (which is just a fancy way of saying doing card details and more artwork for my upcoming card game) yay!

    I never understood tattoos until i got one, now i get the "i want more" principle haha! For me its a matter of finding the right moment and the right depth of artwork to express what i feel inside tho.

    Distractions! I have two cats! one is noisy and paranoid and possibly ocd (not sure if cats can be ocd...?) and the other is cute but dumb (runs down the hallway and forgets to stop at the door). They are keeping me company tonight.

    Anyway enough distractions, i must/will/am-doing some artwork for my Auntie!

    Thanks everyone for giving me something special to look forward to when i got home from werk tonight (apart from my cats of course!) and i will keep following your journeys as i post my own.

    L7

  30. velvetfaerie
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    16 October 2019 in reply to LaTeRaLuS777

    Lateralus + L7 = two good band references there ;)

    Cats - are crazy beasties. Depending on the age of the loopier one - hyperthyroidism is very common in older cats and can present with noise, and over activity.

    I just want sleep. This cold is being mean today. Otherwise all ok here.

    Had a good ophthalmologist appointment yesterday. I found free parking, they didn't charge me for my 1.5hours of check ups, (when the documents said they will) AND they gave me chocolate! :D My right eye is 20/20 vision now. My left is a slight smidge less but in theory and time it will catch up. Next visit in four months.

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