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Topic: This bipolar life

  1. Lisa611
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    21 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    Hi All

    V- a me day sometimes is a must. I took 5 weeks to just focus on me. I'd never done that before but I now realise I needed it. I'm glad I went into hospital. I definitely feel better for it.

    This online learning is exhausting. I'm doing more at home than what I do at school! Have called many parents telling them that their kid hasn't been online. They usually say but their always on their computer. You can't trust teenagers to do the right thing!

    I see my psych tomorrow. I had the option to do a phone consult but I've chosen to go in. I'd rather be face to face. I don't know when this lockdown is going to end. The numbers are still high. This could go on for several more weeks! At the moment my other half is home from work for the next week at least. Today he played golf! I'm not sure why you are allowed to play golf? I've at least started going on a short walk in the afternoons. It gets me outside breathing fresh air. How is everyone else coping?

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  2. asdff
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    21 July 2021 in reply to Lisa611
    Lisa,sending strength.
  3. Lisa611
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    21 July 2021 in reply to asdff
    Thank you Asdff. I guess those of us in lockdown need to have patience. Hopefully these tightened restrictions have an effect in the next few days.
  4. quirkywords
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    21 July 2021 in reply to asdff

    hello

    asdff i grind my teeth and wear a plate at night. Mum did too. I am unaware I do. I hold tension in my jaw .

    Lisa when I was teen I would be in my room with a big text book but in it was a book I was reading. I could show my parents the cover of the book. Maybe kids now are on computers so parents assume they are online learning from school not watching tik tok or you tube or whatever teens watch!!

    Hope you can relax at home.

    Aries I dont what a spin bike is. It is hard to get an unbiased review. Stores online say free shipping but it can be anything from 40 to 300 dollars to deliver!!.. Maybe a treadmill would easier. Hard to buy secondhand when we dont leave the house.

  5. velvetfaerie
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    22 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    Finally assessment with the psychiatrist in 2 weeks.

    Spin bikes are epic.

    Lockdown .... it will come west again mark my words.

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  6. Airies
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    22 July 2021 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Quirky, I believe there’s a shortage of excercise equipment among so many things, building materials and so on.

    Lisa I love your first paragraph. It conveys so so much.it takes so much courage to go into hospital and even more to walk out. I’m supposed to start a emotional wellness group next month but not sure if it will go ahead with lockdown and same with a PTSD one . We shall see.
    V , agree I just need to get on mine more. I’ve been slack this week, but I walk every day weather permitting

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  7. quirkywords
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    22 July 2021 in reply to Airies

    Aries is that wellness group one that is with a well known mental health group, or a local one.
    Since Lisa mentioned her support group,I thought I may try but there are none in my area.
    I did read about a wellness group but it cost money.
    Velvet I agree and wouldn’t be surprised if up north was affected too.


  8. asdff
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    22 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    You are right Velvet. It’s only a matter of time before we are lockdown again.

    Quirky, have you looked a picture of a spin bike? Kind of like an exercise bike but without the fan part in the wheels. You can tighten the load. Im sure there are many other features I just don’t have the mental capacity to describe them all.

    I got told yesterday I have a victim mindset. Okay, so how do I change it????

    like you Velvet, I need to see the psychiatrist. Apparently my meds are doing what they need too.

  9. quirkywords
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    22 July 2021 in reply to asdff

    Hello all

    Asdff Thanks for the information about the spin bike. I will look into it.

  10. Airies
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    22 July 2021 in reply to asdff

    Quirky, the group is at a private hospital. My private covers it but there’s a initial outlay. I find the groups emotionaly draining.

    in regards to a spin bike Asdff captures it quite well. Mines an ex gym one so it will outlast me. I brought it second hand.

    A victim mindset that’s me to a tee. I’ve become cynical, negative, very impulsive also even my dreams have a victim mindset as they often revolve around work, I appear lost on the Backfoot. I guess I’ve always been the victim defending myself. I don’t think I’m capable of changing .

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  11. asdff
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    22 July 2021 in reply to Airies

    Airies, I’ve always been a pessimist. I dislike constructive criticism. I do many things to avoid it.

    I do say no. Quite a lot. I have seen what happens when you don’t say no; burn out. I have a gratitude diary. I don’t use it daily. I do offer kindness to others. I guess Pandora’s Box shall be opened at my next psychologist session. On that note and it could be the victim mentality, it could across as rude and I do not mean that in anyway. It’s just me wanting to get my thoughts out. I go to a psychologist regularly and I know I am VERY lucky to have that service within my reach. I am working on myself. Yet, why does it bring more railroads, more bridges to cross? Would I know that I have a victim mentality without seeing a psychologist? Maybe, through doing my own research, reading etc but probably not. What I am trying to say is, it’s hard to keep hearing these things about me. I feel I am being adaptable and resilient, working through these problems.

  12. quirkywords
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    22 July 2021 in reply to asdff
    I get accused by my children of playing the victim whereas I see myself as a survivor but I do feel life has been unfair at times.
    I can’t handle any criticism and I think constructive criticism is an oxymoron.
    Asdff I admire the way you are adaptable and thst you see a psychologist. I have never got to a third session I am probably a challenging and fussy client.
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  13. Airies
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    23 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    Asdff, I think many people get to point A to B in life relatively easily. We due to the nature of our illness, our dealings with others, doctors and psychs do it a tad harder. It’s uncomfortable hearing about ourselves, spilling our guts out and none of us pictured this as a scenario when we were young. Maybe I’m overgeneralising here. I like you am lucky to have access to health services. My wife does the finances, I’m clueless but I’m sure our health provider is operating at a loss.

    Through it all, the courses, sessions with our psychs, even the meds they are all tools in our toolbox. I think you and others are amazing in the journeys we have traveled. We haven’t given up. The bridges and railroads we cross. I hope I’m not the troll under the bridge.I’m in awe of our little group here. Stay safe , be kind to yourselves .

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    23 July 2021 in reply to Airies

    Aries,

    I think some people seem to get from A to B easily but others may seem to but we don't see how hard it can be as they smile and say they are ok.

    I too admire the way people here keep going and are willing to support each other.

    Also the people who read and dont post I like the way they are listening to others.

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  15. velvetfaerie
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    23 July 2021 in reply to Airies

    We are all guilty of the victim mindset even if transiently.

    It's a trait I personally dislike, in myself and others.

    Everyone is a victim in life regardless of levels of events that happened prior... from a crap childhood to missing out on being picked for a sport team... being over worked or surviving a huge tragedy.

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  16. Airies
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    23 July 2021 in reply to velvetfaerie

    What did others fear growing up? I feared not getting married, being able to have children and ending up as an old man with nothing on a park bench. Luckily enough to have the first 2 and last time I laid on a bench I struggled to get up.

  17. velvetfaerie
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    23 July 2021 in reply to Airies

    I feared marriage and children. Responsibilities. Driving.

  18. quirkywords
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    23 July 2021 in reply to Airies

    Aries I was afraid I would never be able to do further study as I was doing badly at school.

    I was afraid I would live with my parents forever.

    I was afraid I would not hold down a job as an adult.

  19. velvetfaerie
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    23 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    I haven't studied as much as I should have. A professor I work with has said many times "do a degree with me!!!"

    I held this job down and I have no idea how. Not even joking.

    I jumped from job to job for many years. Got bored and quit. I'm bored here at the moment but I hope in 1.5wks if it's found I do have adhd... things can change for the better.

    But we see.

  20. david'n'goliath
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    23 July 2021 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hi velvetfaerie, love that name and your dog faced profile pic, awesome!

    I'm a dog person, love dogs, practically half dog myself I reckon.

    dng is after all only one letter away from dog!

    I hear your boredom, did you find studying (whatever it was) boring also?

    I got so bored, I was bored of being bored! lol. Found very few things to do that aren't boring.

  21. Lisa611
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    23 July 2021 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Hi All...I think I feared ending up alone and never finding somebody that I just clicked with. Luckily I found my other half later in my life after a few failed relationships.

    Saw my psych yesterday. He's happy with how I'm going. No change to the meds. I asked him yesterday what it says about my brain to be able to tolerate such a high dose of antidepressant. He explained about how the receptors in your brain are sensitive. He then went on with a detailed explanation about what happens to the brain when you're depressed. It makes me feel better that there's a scientific explanation for my condition. He reassured me that it's not something I can help. I think people throw the word depression around too easily these days.

    Wishing everybody a good weekend

  22. quirkywords
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    23 July 2021 in reply to Lisa611

    Lisa

    when I used to give talks to the community groups, I would say that people of say things like:

    I am so depressed my footy team lost

    I am so depressed i didnt get an item on ebay.

    I am so depressed I didnt win the lottery.

    These are all sayings I have heard people say. Try to explain they are upset or disappointed but not depressed.

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  23. david'n'goliath
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    23 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    I think/feel some of them will be emoting that the footy team losing adds to their pile of woe, or their sadness briefly increased because they lost the bid/lottery.

    Like the final straw on the camels back, that broke the back and spirit of the animal.

    I wonder if they understand if it wasn't the straw/loss that broke the back, but all the load before it... all that stuff called baggage in a camel caravan.

  24. velvetfaerie
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    23 July 2021 in reply to david'n'goliath

    Dogs are fantastic. I'm in the process of fostering with view to adopt another. Long road though.

    Well when studying what I was interested in... not so boring but had boring bits.

    I just put on a cool TV show... walked away. Bored. Lol.

  25. david'n'goliath
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    23 July 2021 in reply to velvetfaerie

    Wife n I have two approx 11 year old dogs.

    I had an idea to visit the animal shelter but just havent gone round to it yet.

    I think I would be so sad to see them all behind cages and want to let them run free in or out of the cage as they saw fit, rather than so restricted.

    I hated tv for quite some time, that decreased down into being happy not to watch tv!

  26. quirkywords
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    23 July 2021 in reply to david'n'goliath

    when I was a child the worst thing I could say was to say to my mum something was boring. . She would say

    I was boring and I should find a way of finding things interesting. She would go on an on that iI would never be brave to say I was bored, it was the most disliked word in our house!!!

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  27. david'n'goliath
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    23 July 2021 in reply to quirkywords

    That was the aussie saying that went round.. "Only boring people are bored."

  28. velvetfaerie
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    24 July 2021 in reply to david'n'goliath

    I am scared about the psychiatrist app. No idea why. I have tests to have done prior and the organisation of it all around work is so exhausting. I just feel like my life is always out of control.

    I have been awake since ridiculously early today. Brain is loud.

    Coffee soon. Early gym. 4 homes have asked me to visit this weekend and it's a resounding no. I am so desperate for me alone time. Somehow people still expect me to run after them. I just cbf anymore. I won't people please at the expense of my own welfare.

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  29. david'n'goliath
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    24 July 2021 in reply to velvetfaerie
    velvetfaerie said:

    I won't people please at the expense of my own welfare.

    Indeed, me neither.

    nor will I appease people who harm me or you for that matter.

  30. velvetfaerie
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    24 July 2021 in reply to david'n'goliath

    People pleasing stuff. I burn out regularly on my mental and physical rat wheel. My friends over the years have become a tiny circle. Those who get me and I get them. No narkiness when I said no I can't.... I can count them on one hand. Ones who respect me and my life and boundaries. They're keepers and they all have their own MH issues too....

    Been restless since toddlerhood....... mind and body constantly whir....

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