I just wanted to share my experiences with sleep for any tips or to learn if anyone else has experienced the same.
It's very difficult for me to sleep and I don't even really know exactly why. Usually at this time when i'm trying to go to bed I feel dead inside. I feel like I should be doing something, that I want there to be a reason/purpose for me going to sleep to wake up to, though ironically, I end up doing the most unproductive things like continuing to play games. It's like I want to go to sleep because I feel so exhausted but at the same time I hate being so bored? I don't even know if any of that makes sense to anyone.
From what I can reason with, I believe I may be feeling this way because of my lack of purpose in life- I've dropped out of my studies 3 times in completely different fields, as nothing of interest has caught my attention. I swear to god; I'm not just saying it- I literally find everything that is useful to learn about, boring.
I don't know what to do. If i'm honest, I think the reason why I feel this way might just be because I'm stupid or something, like, legitimately stupid, or lazy, or maybe both.