I am a 21 year old girl who has recently started a job as a graduate in a technology company. Several other Graduates are also in this graduate position with me. We were introduced to previous grads from day one.
I had noticed that they go for coffee and lunch without me. At first I didn't mind, but it continued, I would ask them to go for coffee they would say no because they were busy. Then 10 minutes later I would go alone and I find them getting coffee together when they had just told me they were too busy.
They also had a farewell breakfast to one of the previous grads who we all met on day one. That morning I joined a co-worker to the cafe, and found Everyone, graduates and non graduates having breakfast together, I had no idea this was even something they planed on doing.
They would bring kebab for lunch as a group without bothering to ask if wanted to get some as well. They have their own group chat, which they plan everything on. It has gotten to a point where they plan about getting coffee and asking someone to join because they didn't join yesterday right in front of me.
As grads we have a project we are working on, every time I have an idea they always make me feel like what I contributed was incorrect.
I all ways ask my self what have I done to them? I promise I have done nothing that could upset them or anyone.
Some times I think it's because of my background and culture. Maybe because I am to shy, I try my best to talk and joke but they just never seen to care about anything I say or try to say. I can say that I am not used to this amount of socializing, but they can help me if they give me a chance to express my self.
I may seem to be making a big deal about this, but I have my reasons, I have been avoided and ignored since my early primary school years. I understood then that been because I was from a middle Eastern background it made made me avoidable. But why now why at this time of life?, I was hoping being an adult and and being in a work place would be different then my school years. It just hurts and I want to understand, why?
Can anyone help me figure out why this are like this to me?? Is there something wrong with me? Have I done something wrong?
Thank you 😊