I am so lonely. I have no friends, I lost all my good online friends. All my other friends make me feel like I should get it over and done with now because it’s not like they’d care very much if I were gone. I’m so so tired. I’m scared. I want to die, I want to kill my self. I can’t stop thinking about it every day. It all too much for me the world is too big and it just too much I can’t keep living like this I don’t want to keep living at all I just want to put my self too peace painlessly so I can leave. So why am I still here? It’s just causing me even more pain to be alive and I don’t want this I don’t want to live anymore. I’ve gotten to the point that even though I do love my parents I don’t even have the selflessness to care about what killing my self would do too them I just want to get myself out of this. I hate it here. I hate it so much, I hate this feeling, I hate myself, I just want to get out I want to sleep and never wake Back up into this cruel world again. Let me die. So why am I not dead? I know I’m just causing myself more hurt and pain by staying but I don’t want to feel any more pain. What do I do? I know no one will tell me to kill myself here. But I honestly don’t see how anything could get better. I feel like I’ll be alive for a while. I don’t want to feel anymore pain I just want to dissolve in numbness.