Hello Strivingtosurvive, and thank you for posting a comment that seems to be a situation where we haven't actually heard anyone starting a new thread, although I'm sure it's something other people have also experienced and it certainly is a concern.
I am so terribly sorry to know of your dear mum passing away because there is never a good time for this to happen, my condolences.
Your last sentence 'my anxiety made me read what I wrote like 15 times' resonates with me because anxiety creates an unpleasant and complicated relationship with your mind.
It gives you thoughts about what you should be frightened of and what horrible things could happen to you, and they reoccur at times when you don't expect them to, at the most inconvenient time, and unfortunately, never leave you alone, they are persistent and what's said is so important you believe it, but hey, that's not your fault.
We have to try and believe that these thoughts are not important, it's only our minds like to warn us about incidents because they are keeping us safe by doing this, but this doesn't necessarily mean the thoughts actually mean anything, the important thing is not what these thoughts you have, it's what you do when you have them.
Thoughts are just that, and when you have anxiety it can produce negative feelings/thoughts that tend to stay in your mind, whether or not they are intrusive thoughts is for your doctor to decide.
If they say they might be then these thoughts mean that you unconsciously want to do the things that come into your mind but the opposite is exactly what you want to happen, and I say this because it used to happen with me.
Hope you are able to reply back to us.