I'm so sorry to hear about your step dad. Losing him would bring lots of grief. I'm just so sorry. Huge hugs.
Were you able to catch up with your real dad?
Have you been able to talk through some of your feelings with a psych?
This is a difficult time for you on so many levels, please reach out and tell us how you're going.
Crying is a good release, sometimes it's hard to write to us when you're crying but we're still here and care about you.
Sending lots of love and Prayers for your healing.