Hi Ellow369,
Thank you for sharing how you are feeling at the moment. It must have taken a huge amount of courage to share this story with us and we want you to know that we are so thankful that you have. You never know who might read this post and feel less alone in their own struggles because they know there are others who understand.
We are also really sorry to hear that you are having thoughts of suicide. Sadly, feelings of guilt and shame are all too common during pregnancy and having these feelings while you are also feeling isolated sounds like it must be really tough.
If you ever feel unsafe due to these thoughts and feelings it is important that you call
000 straight away, this is an emergency.
We think that it is best to have an open and honest conversation with your GP about your concerns in going to hospital so that they can help you find the safest and best solution. If you are unsure about having this conversation with them, that is understandable and maybe you could give us a call to talk it through.
Perinatal Anxiety and Depression Australia (PANDA) are experts in supporting women who are experiencing what you have described so we really encourage you to check out their website and give them a call. You can call them on
1300 726 306. Please note that the phoneline is open
Mon-Fri from 9am-7:30pm.
We are also here for you, 24/7, on
1300 22 4636. Our team are kind, helpful and understanding and are here to talk through your thoughts and feelings. You can also call our friends
at Lifeline 13 11 14 if you prefer – they are also lovely.
You can also check out the webchat options if that works better for you:
Beyond Blue
Lifeline
What you are facing sounds incredibly difficult, but your care and love for your baby is inspiring as well. It can be hard to look after ourselves when we feel this way, so please be gentle with yourself. You are doing your best and that is always enough.
Please feel free to drop back in and let us know how you are feeling as well as joining other conversations with this warm, welcoming and kind community.
Kind regards,
Sophie M