I recently started my first semester at university, I absolutely hate it. I thought I was interested in the degree I'm currently studying (as I was passionate about it in high school) but I'm not. Uni is making me miserable, I find myself vomiting every night from the thought of being there, I have a mental breakdown before going to my classes. I'm beginning to skip lectures and tutorials, I've had the entire week off and If I don't attend my classes next week I'll be facing a technical fail. As someone who struggles with social anxiety, Uni is not the place for me. In my tutorials, the tutors force group work and working together down our throats, they do not allow us to work independently and I hate it. (I thrive off independent learning).
I am thinking about deferring my course for a year but I am not currently employed, my parents basically forced me into tertiary education. I've tried to discuss with them how university isn't something I want to do currently, and how bad it is affecting my mental health ( I've been having suicidal thoughts, but not acting upon them) My parents don't understand and they always tell me to "get over it" and "we all have to do things we don't want to do, it's a part of life". I really want to leave before March 31 (census date) after that, I will be charged for my subjects and stuck with late withdrawal fees etc. I am scared, I am lost in my life, unsure of what to do. I want to leave Uni but I'll have nothing for me, my parents would definitely not approve of my decisions. I really need advice on what to do in this type of situation.