My whole life is so boring, and it came with toxic family members and friends, I think about unaliving my self all the time but I can never do it properly so I’m stuck with the guilt about worrying my online friends. I want to cry so badly but I don’t want people to ask if I’m ok because I’m tired of talking and answering the same question with “yes I’m good” all the time..

im just so tired of everything, I want to scream but with no one to hear me. Other people probably have it worse then me so I don’t want to be selfish and just talk about my feelings- and that’s what usually happens so I have to keep to myself, what makes it worse is,, I’m the therapist friend to a few online friends when I’m not stable enough to deal with it.. this doesn’t make me selfish right?..

And I’m not even motivated enough to get up and lose some weight and take care of myself anymore, I don’t want a therapist because I’m afraid that if I say “too much” they’ll take me somewhere where I won’t be able to do anything anymore,

im not sure what else to say so this was just a quick vent-

N0vaaa.

Hey N0vaaa,

Thanks for reaching out tonight and sharing some of your thoughts with us. Venting can be really helpful so please do share more if you find it useful. We're really sorry to hear you don't have much support from family or friends. We can imagine how isolating this must feel. We think talking with a therapist could be a really great pathway for finding support and advice. A therapist will explain what information they are required to report and should let you know when you're entering into a discussion that they may need to disclose. 

We would strongly recommend that you get in touch with Kids Helpline - https://kidshelpline.com.au/. Kids Helpline counsellors can be contacted 24/7 by young people 25 and under via telephone and also via webchat if you go through the website provided.

Headspace is another organisation we would recommend, they are specifically for young people aged 12-25 and they offer a wide range of services including counselling and group programs. They also have a group chat on their webpage - https://headspace.org.au/

Our Support Service is also trying to reach out via email. 

Many of our members will understand and may be able to help. If you would like to post further, please tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help support you

Hi N0vaaa,

Sorry you are feeling this way……

It must be difficult for you, I’m sorry your friends and family are toxic…..

Please know you can chat to us anytime on this forum we are here to support you…….

What makes you want to scream? I understand it’s hard feeling how we feel inside ourselves sometimes…

You are supposed to be here in this life! You are worthy……. The best is yet to come…..

I understand you don’t want to see a therapist………. when I first saw a psychologist I had thoughts of what if I say something and they will think I’m crazy………. but my phycologist was great and they only wanted to see me get better……… with everything we spoke about nothing bad happened to me it was actually the opposite by me speaking out it gave me back my life because the health professionals helped me to get better!

How would you feel about talking to your gp? You could do a mental health plan together this will enable you to see a psychologist…….

Im sure health professionals could help you if you let them…..

Im here to chat