I wish you could see how truly brilliant you are. I will suggest you are the most conscious person out of all the people you know but they, for some reason, don't recognise your brilliance or your level of consciousness. While you're leading people to become more conscious, no one seems to be following your lead
- You're leading your parents to acknowledge the significance of mental health but they refuse to open their minds. I experienced depression for a number of years in an earlier part of my life, so I know for a fact depression is 'real'. If they felt depressed they'd definitely know, without a doubt, depression exists
- You're leading your friends and family to question the small things but no one seems to want to pay attention to the small things. Often the seemingly small things are the things that matter most when it comes to the difference we all need
- You're leading the people around you to feel more but it sounds like people are kind of shut off from their feelings. Personally, I'm a highly sensitive gal who couldn't handle living without my feelings. Insensitive people do tend to trigger me at times. It's amazing how so many people can do a lack of excitement and an over abundance of stress in their life without actually questioning anything. It's kind of insane when you think about it
- You're leading people to feel a need, like you feel a need for certain things, but they all kind of sound a bit numb to such needs. Do you find that highly questionable?
So, after all that, would you say you're the most conscious person you know (in search of greater understanding) but everyone around you seems to be asleep to some degree? Would you say the greatest challenge becomes about finding those who are a little more awake?
I'm so glad you came here. There are so many amazing people on the forums here who tend to question everything they find questionable, who tend to seek greater understanding of themself and others and who love to raise those who are feeling so down that 'up' feels impossible to find.
That 'useless' feeling - I will suggest that our true purpose is not always obvious at first. Would you find yourself 'useful' to those who seek to question everything and feel life on a deeper level? Are you a natural born highly sensitive philosopher? Is your purpose to trigger people to be as thoughtful as you, as feeling and as brilliant as you? I would say YES.
You are a truly amazing person who deserves reward, not punishment.