I’m really young but I’m going through the worlds worst time. I was recently diagnosed with MS at just 17. It’s absolutely destroyed me. I have a maximum of three friends at the moment, everyone is gone. My dad isn’t on the scene and my family is a HUGE MESS. I have three brothers on the Autism spectrum and a single parent. Mum doesn’t work because she needs to be able to take the boys to their many many appointments. We have a crappy rental and struggle. Mum is consistently mad, the house is a mess. I haven’t been to school for the last 8 weeks because I’ve been so so sick, they’re looking to expel me. I don’t know how to fix it, I’m so sick. I’m a year 12 and used to thrive in school, I have so many academic awards but now here I am, failing, no friends and so sick. I forgot how to smile, my only person I really have left is my boyfriend and even then I’m not supposed to date so it’s stressful, I love him but it almost feels too much at the moment, he’s so good to me but I feel like I just can’t do it, I feel like a burden on him. I’m never happy. I was the happiest kid once upon a time. Now I’m depressed, I take 7 different medications a day, I come home to an angry mum, and I feel like absolute shit. I work and it’s so so much pressure. I’ve attempted suicide although was unsuccessful. Only few people know this though. I just want it all to end, I need a break from the universe. I don’t want to be sick anymore, I don’t want to take my medication, I don’t want to be expelled, I don’t want to disappoint my mum. I feel like I can’t fix this, I have no motivation because I’m so crushed. It doesn’t help that I’m loaded with trauma and PTSD. I watched my baby brother die, just to give you the idea. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to be happy, I want this to end. It’s so so hard, no one can fix it for me. I miss being able to smile, I was a happy kid. I feel like I have zero options and I feel like the universe is 110% against me.