Thankyou Pumpkinella, your reply made me feel a little better. I think that is my problem, all I'm seeing is vaccinate, get the jab, hurry up and vaccinate, freedom day! It is overwhelming to see that daily especially when you're unvaccinated.
I'm hoping after Dec 1st when it will no longer be required to move about freely, this, like you said will all die down.
Another of my main issues is caring what other people think. I tend to worry what other people think of myself or those closest to me. So when I see in the media that most of NSW has been vaccinated and I haven't, it makes you feel like less of a being, when I should be thinking "who cares what people think of me" I'll be dead and gone one day and none of this will mean anything.
I'm sitting on a little ball of dirt spinning around in the middle of absolutely nowhere amongst billions of stars and galaxies and if I was looking down from just one of those stars, millions of galaxies away, the earth would be nothing but a speck of dust. So from that perspective, Do I really care what people think of me? Whether I'm vaccinated or not, whether my partner has a different opinion than me? How can I let these meaningless things cause me pain?
I know all this, it's just a daily struggle to remind myself of this when I am in the pit of anxiety and depression.
Eckhart basically saved me. He popped up on my YouTube a couple years ago and something clicked. I've read all his books ( the power of now twice) which led me more deeply into the subject of spirituality. I haven't looked back. So many authors have helped me, especially works by Wayne Dyer. I meditate daily, sometimes I'll miss one day in the week but it has pretty much become routine. I no longer spend time on Facebook or let in any other negativity where I can help it. I do so much work on self improvement on a daily basis. I feel I have to or I will slip back into the void. It is a struggle. I guess I had a lapse, hence my original post.