I am really glad to have a friend like you. To be honest, you are one of my true friends and our friendship is nothing like my past friendships. I know I have said this so many times, but I think you are an amazing person. You are more than just words on a screen.
I think when people say 'wow that is really good', some people who say it, genuinely mean it. (whenever I say I mean it :) But sometimes people do say it to be nice
I wanted to say I think it is amazing that you can take one song and form multiple interpretations on it. Not many people can do that, you are unique! I can add another thing in April's Amazingness List. I know that sounds cringy, but I really think you are wonderful.
I understand what you mean about not being focused on a particular thing and leading to the suicidal thoughts to be brought up back on the surface. I really like how you do multiple things to be focused, I will try it. Thank you for telling me about it. :)
It does not sound ridiculous, I am glad that you go to the gym to distract yourself. I love how you said that your mind is focused on trying not to fly straight off the treadmill. :)
I have a treadmill at home, but I don't know if it helps me. I think I will have to keep searching to find the thing that distracts me. I used to go to basketball training and game, also swimming. It distracted me because I was under pressure, lol. But I took a break towards the end last year and I just couldn't get myself back to the basketball court or the swimming pool. I still can't, the break was supposed to be for a short period of time but now it has lasted over 7 months. Haha, I am lazy.
Thank you for being so kind. I know that you are not trying to guilt me to stay alive. It's just I am sick of it, sick of living, sick of everything.
But, we 'met' less than a month ago and our friendship has become so strong and I wanted to thank you for being here and being my friend. You make me feel less lonely too. :)
I definitely trust your baking. If I can burn a frozen pizza... You probably won't trust my baking, lol.
I am sorry your mood changes every couple of minutes, it must be hard. But I am glad you are happy right now, I feel happy right now too. Seeing your response makes me happy. :)
Thank you for your kind words. I am really sorry if I triggered anything.
How was today been for you? How are you feeling?
I hope you are doing well and hope each day is bright, filled with happiness and sunshine.