Wellcome to our forums!
Im so sorry you have been feeling this way.
Im really sorry to hear of your intrusive thoughts I understand that intrusive thoughts can be really hard to deal with especially when they feel as though they are yelling at you and are on repeat…. It’s horrible I understand…..
I went through severe anxiety OCD while I went through this condition I had horrible dark intrusive thoughts that were on repeat they really overwhelmed me until I learned how to master my condition.
Do you feel as though you are suffering with anxiety as well when you have these thoughts?
I was diagnosed with OCD by a psychiatrist after diagnosis this then led me to a clinic that specialised in OCD…. I did group therapy at this clinic the therapy I did was meta cognitive therapy this therapy changed my life! It took time and perseverance to practice what I was taught but now I have mastered it…
with my condition I was stuck in an OCD cycle my anxiety was very high at a point in my condition and I believe this high anxiety bought on the horrible dark intrusive thoughts.
I have now made a full recovery from OCD I no longer get caught up in its cycle, my severe anxiety is gone and my horrible dark intrusive thoughts have lifted! Life on the other side of it is amazing!
Maybe you could look into Metacognitive therapy and see if it’s a fit for you.
Have you been able to speak to your gp about the way you are currently feeling? When I first starting experiencing severe anxiety my gp put me on a antidepressant to help me to manage my anxiety.
I understand when you say you just want everything to stop for a bit….. do you think it could be because your mind seems to race? Everything seems busy? Out of control feeling?
In my experience with severe anxiety every thing would feel like it was going so fast, I was constantly exhausted even just sitting down I felt exhausted because my mind just wouldn’t stop…
Have you ever tried meditation? Meditation is a great practice it taught me that I’m not my thoughts but the watcher of my thoughts I believe this practice got me over the line.
Have you ever tried grounding techniques?
When you have the self harm thoughts try to redirect your attention to something in the present moment.
Practice being … present ( not in your head)…
When your at the beach with your dogs try practicing to be really present there in the moment…
Im here if you want to chat or ask questions