Lol. Life is hard. And school is hard. And sexuality is hard. And my parents are mean. And I haven’t spoken to my friends really in 3 months. And I haven’t spoken to my sister in 6 montys

lol My therapist want to put me on depression meds. My mum doesn’t even think my therapy is working. I can’t talk to anyone. I hate my school. I just relapse after being clean for 12 days.

life is really hard you guys.

Hi Lucette,

It sounds like things are getting really tough for you at the moment and you're feeling quite isolated with no-one to talk to too. 

Are there any friends that you'd be comfortable reaching out to vent a bit about what's been going on for you?

In the meantime, we've reached out to you privately as you have mentioned SH before so we want to make sure you are safe. If you feel like things are getting difficult or it's an emergency we would encorage you to reach out to our friends at Kids Help Line on 1800 55 1800 or contact emergency services at 000.

i dont want to bother them. they have their own problems and i dont really talk to them all that much anymore.

Hi Lucette

I see you have 15 posts already, that's good news to see a young person using this great forum. I'm glad you are comfortable posting here.

I can recall my teenage, early adult years and frankly, they were bad times. I was bullied, school was a nightmare as I couldn't focus (later found to be associated with my illnesses), friends weren't loyal, my mother was undiagnosed with her issues and I was desperate to get out of home and earn money.

Add to that my love of airplanes and any wonder why a life in the Air Force suited me. As soon as I turned 17yo I joined. I could have continued my education when in there but chose not to.

So, what can you do right now to help you along?

• take any mefical advice you are offered. You might be surprised with their effect. They take a few weeks to make change and you can always ask to be taken off them
• Understand your parents and try to meet them half way with issues. They won't be right on all issues so politely point it out that you disagree. Try not to raise your voice. Be calm.
• We only ever need one friend. Pick one. Keep in touch with them. Ideally one that is kind and shows interest.
• Exercise and relaxation.
• Less time in the company of your parents. Set yourself up in your room for good study practices, light music, desk, do your schoolwork better than ever and you'll reap the rewards.
• Continue using the forum to vent what's on your mind, right here in this thread. When you post your topic will return and people like me can see you've added as new post and we can respond.

I hope you feel better than you did when you wrote in

TonyWK

thank you. i know my parents are trying but they are so difficult and i cant stand them most of the time.

i just want to move to uni and leave, but if i have been at 3 schools and everything has stayed the same, that kinda means that where ever i go will be alone and an outsider.

i feel like i am faking any feelings of depression i have. my friends all have it so much worse, so i shouldn't have a reason to even feel like this.

i will use this to vent so thank you for all you advice

<3

hi.

In your 1st post you mentioned your mum feels the therapy is not working. How you think you are feeling to when you first received help? I would feel that when something went bad I would reset and the path to getting better became out of reach again. These days it is more of a journey to take and look back at how things are now vs how they have been. And even if progress is small, one of my sayings is a mountain can only be moved a pebble at a time. How do you feel you are going with your therapist?

these are also thoughts I constantly have...

i feel like i am faking any feelings of depression i have ... have it so much worse, so i shouldn't have a reason to even feel like this

In those moments I feel like I have failed, that also tells me that getting help is the smart and brave thing to do. And can you tell me about the feeling of being an outsider? Where did that come from? If you feel low you are deserving and worthy of support and compassion and care. Interested i hearing more of your story.