Im so very sorry to have read the last half dozen post to find out that you are all struggling so very much in wanting to stay alive...That so much deeply saddens me and I am certain anyone else that reads your words...
I have been where you are now..and am very grateful for a lovely women I spoke to on a mh lifeline..she stopped me from taking just one more step over the edge...
Please try as hard as you all can to believe that each day is a brand new day for us to try to bring positives back into our lives...family, pets and friends are wonderful and beautiful reason to want to stay...but the best reason of all is you wanting to stay and in believing that things can and do change, have faith in yourself, that your capable of doing it and you are not your depression, you are stronger then your depression...(which are our thoughts)....
From your very first post here, you have become very special, valued and cared for by everyone here...Please be very gentle on yourselves and never give up looking for some happiness...it’s their, with your pets, your family, your friends..they all unconditionally love you..
I wrote posted this earlier on in this thread...I would like to again...if that’s okay...
“What keep me her the.. beauty in our lives.”
The trees they stand so strong and tall,
Little creatures and birds you can hear their call,
look at the trees and hear the creatures,
Then look around and see earths features,
Theres hills and mountains , streams and rivers,
Peace and calm these waters deliver,
Green grass and flowers of every colour,
Sit on the grass then pick up a flower,
Smell the flowers, and saviour their fragrance,
Your heart and soul is beginning to dance,
Then look at the sky, the clouds you'll see,
Gently floating, changing shape, you'll see,
At night the sky lights up with stars,
The moon you'll find between these stars,
Shining brightly you can see there sparkle,
Your eyes will see something quite remarkable,
This is our earth, and our universe,
Where you are needed to complete this verse,
You are a part of this place we all call earth,
If you live in this place, feeling broken and hurt,
Then take the time each day, and study this place,
For there's beauty all around us in every place,
So why not stay and look around,
And see the beauty that you just found.
It time now for you to start,
To gather it up and place it in your heart.
Keep then safe and keep them sound,
All this beauty that you just found.