Thanks Grandy,

I like you also have awful trouble falling asleep. I have tried the sleep stories, Mindfulness and like you, sometimes they work and sometimes not. The last few nights I have also been trying out Yoga Nidra meditations (you can find them on YouTube) so far they seem to be working for me.

Hi pandemica, take care and judt saying hi to u

With you in spirit

Thanks Sleepy21,

I am really lucky that I am working late for the next 5 days. Once I finish work, I only need to get through 1 hour of cravings before the bottle shop closes then it will be impossible for me to drink and I will have won the battle for today. That is.. until Tomorrow.

Thankyou Sophie,

I really found the counciling online page to be very helpful. I will also try out the Family Drug support service when I feel ready.

Meanwhile I have won today's battle, work just pleaded with me to stay back and do an OT so I will now be working through to tomorrow morning. Another 18hour shift. No chance of Drinking tonight that's for sure.

I am thinking that I might not be far off a hospital admission. Between needing to stop using Alcohol and constant harmful thoughts, I have researched a few hospitals that I think might be able to help me.

My question is, when do you know its time? For me it will be a big deal as I will likely need to take a significant amount of time off work.

I just need to stop feeling like this and my last and only hope is that an inpatient admission might be able to help me.

Hi pandemics,

My feelings about being hospitalised are hard to discuss here.

I think if ppl close to u are suggesting it, that can be a good indicator, friends and family are my go to

As my best friend always says, u can always leave.

I know many can't leave, but if ur voluntary, it can be flexible

For all the skills support and connections, although it can occasionally be a bad stay and even am awful stay, I still thi nm at times, hospital is the safest place. Sending a hug

Hi Pandemica,

I think it’s great that you have done research in regards to hospitals that can help you.

Have you been able to speak to anyone at the hospitals for their advice?

I wish you all the best for your road ahead.

I haven't spoken to anyone from the hospitals that I have chosen. I just want all this pain to end.

I understand Pandemica..

I understand it’s very distressing dealing with horrible intrusive thoughts constantly…… it’s unrelenting…

I just thought maybe if you spoke to the hospitals they could give you an idea of when it’s a good time to be admitted.

Im here if you want to chat

Hi pandemica

It can take a few weeks to get in, but once in I find they help a lot

Can u put urself on their lists and get a referral...and if a bed comes available u can always say no

The system, or systems overall, don't care too much about us, so we need to cover ourselves...if u can get a bed u can turn it down if u decide otherwise

Re research u can also call the hospital and speak to someone...see if they seem nice...see if u feel they care..

Yes, the nights are the worst. I have beaten an eating disorder only ti inherit a drinking problem. I just wish that I could relax into the situation that I am in.

Tried drive to the Gap today to look and take in the scenery. Unfortunately the rain was too heavy and I decided to return home. It was just too hard to drive. Hopefully I will be able to go to the Gap tomorrow without such awful weather.

Hi Pandemica,

Id like to second Sophie M s post and say thank you for your beautiful message ❤️ I’m so glad that we have been able to help you.

Yes I highly recommend group therapy, before I started my group therapy I was a little apprehensive but once I started it I soon realised that It was going to be life changing for me.

I found that being in group therapy, I felt less alone I wasn’t the only one with the condition I had…. there were many others and the therapy we were all doing together was to reach the same goal.

The therapy I did really changed my life because it taught me so many things, it gave me many tools and skills these tools and skills I learned I use every day in my life not only for the condition I had but for every day things…..

It really opened my mind and I realised that just because I held certain perceptions and beliefs in that moment that didn’t mean they had to stay that way… I could challenge them and change them.

I have a whole new out look on life after doing my therapy.

Congratulations on beating a eating disorder I understand that would have taken a lot of courage and perseverance.

I understand you now have a drinking problem but do you know what you can overcome this too.

Sometimes in life we are given challenges I believe, and it’s when we are in the thick of those challenges we begin to really grow within ourselves and fly.

You are a strong resilient person Pandemica and I believe with the correct help you will overcome these challenges and not only fly but soar like an eagle.

Here to chat

Well after a really turbulent few weeks I have finally started to take some positive steps. I went to my first AA meeting, and most importantly I got a referral for an inpatient admission. I rang the hospital this afternoon and they have accepted me. Looks like I will be going in on 4th April. It seems strange but just having done these two things has lifted my mood a little, now I feel that there is actually some hope for the future and that I may potentially get relief from this horrible illness rather than seeing my situation as being absolutely hopeless.

Hi Pandemica,

I just wanted to say congratulations! This is wonderful news.

You are moving forward with such courageous steps………

Your on your journey and it’s a journey that will take you to places and outcomes that can’t be explained……..

I know that your going to be strong enough to come out the other side of the tunnel a newer stronger version of your self.

Hold onto your hope because it’s hope that will keep you moving forward. ❤️

I wish you all the best….. we are always here and we’d love to hear of your progress.

Hi Pandemica,

I haven't caught up on everything - you are really achieving a lot! This next change is such good news, too. I am glad you have taken time to research & plan ahead. You have learned so much along the path you have taken to get here. You have many skills & tools you can put to use.

Go for it - & all my best hopes are with you.

mmMekitty

Hi & how are you, Pandemica? I want to remind you, people here are thinking of you, wishing you all our best, 😺 along this very difficult journey you're on.

mmMekitty

Night time scares me.

However lamp light on, TV on mute helps me.

Regardless of what measure you take, take A measure/s that works for you.

AA was not for me (I'm a recovering alcoholic), however you may find it works as many do.

Good luck as you're doing extremely well.

Chris